Vikingking1488
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- Joined
- Nov 1, 2018
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So Ive been reading extensively how women like to be dominated and have rape fantasies etc.
So in my sex life I've increasingly ramped up my aggression factor. One girl asked me to called her a slut and pee once and I was too ***** to do it. I was meek and weak.
Then as I got more experience Ive pretty much internalized the "rapey" vibes during sex.
Whenever Ive ****ed, especially currently with my LTR, I've been extra aggressive with name calling, spanking, hair pulling choking etc. I've watched rape scenes in movies and extreme domination/facial abuse tier porn as inspiration, and I try and mimic the body movement of the dudes. In the moment I have nothing but thoughts of aggression and dehumanization.
My internal dialogue is that my partner in that moment is a literal piece of meat.
I actually had a problem for years where I'd never *** in a girls mouth by *******, ever. One night I actually kept telling myself "she's a nasty dumb stupid slut and she deserves whatever comes out of your penis" and I came via ******* for the first time ever. This is someone I deeply care about and what got me off was thinking this person was filth.
There's some dualistic **** going on that weird me out. But women ****ing LOVE it. It ****s me up to think about and it makes me scared of my own Sexuality. Everything is 100% consensual and sober so Im not worried about getting #metood or anything, but I do look at myself in the mirror after some rough sex sometimes and go "what the **** did I just do?"
Its addicting and weird at the same time. Has this been the normal way to **** all along?
So in my sex life I've increasingly ramped up my aggression factor. One girl asked me to called her a slut and pee once and I was too ***** to do it. I was meek and weak.
Then as I got more experience Ive pretty much internalized the "rapey" vibes during sex.
Whenever Ive ****ed, especially currently with my LTR, I've been extra aggressive with name calling, spanking, hair pulling choking etc. I've watched rape scenes in movies and extreme domination/facial abuse tier porn as inspiration, and I try and mimic the body movement of the dudes. In the moment I have nothing but thoughts of aggression and dehumanization.
My internal dialogue is that my partner in that moment is a literal piece of meat.
I actually had a problem for years where I'd never *** in a girls mouth by *******, ever. One night I actually kept telling myself "she's a nasty dumb stupid slut and she deserves whatever comes out of your penis" and I came via ******* for the first time ever. This is someone I deeply care about and what got me off was thinking this person was filth.
There's some dualistic **** going on that weird me out. But women ****ing LOVE it. It ****s me up to think about and it makes me scared of my own Sexuality. Everything is 100% consensual and sober so Im not worried about getting #metood or anything, but I do look at myself in the mirror after some rough sex sometimes and go "what the **** did I just do?"
Its addicting and weird at the same time. Has this been the normal way to **** all along?