electro shock
Don Juan
It seems like nothing exists anymore. Everything is dead around me.
8 years ago I could walk out of my house and the park would be filled with people - kids playing around with their parents watching over, elders taking a walk, some people walking their dogs, a bunch of teenagers playing street hockey... I would just walk out of my house and I would almost always meet four or five people I know and join them in the fun, then we'd go to one of the guys' house and order pizza and watch movies and play videogames all evening.
8 years ago everything was fun, I had a goal in life and everything was working fine and I was enjoying myself with my friends and family.
But now it's just... dead. Everything seems dead. I live alone. I walk out of my house and walk around the park - there is no one. No one. The little kids playing around have disapeared, the people walking their dogs or the teens playing street hockey... everyone is gone. The place is dead. The park used to be filled with flowers, stone structures, bushes, trees... but even that is dead. There are no flowers anymore (the city used to put new flowers every year but they've stopped so it's just dirty soil that hasn't been cleaned for years), the stone structures are destroyed, most of the trees have been chopped off, the bushes have dried up, the grass is dirty and full of patches... this is the park I grew up in, this is the park where my parents took me when I was too young to walk, the park where I would go every day during every summer during my childhood and teenage years. I met all my friends there and I had so much fun there... and now, the place looks like a forsaken desert.
My world has died. There's nothing left. Even the wooden benches in the park are broken. This morning I walked around in the park and I sat down for nearly two hours just thinking about what the place used to be. I haven't seen a sign of life at all - no cars moving in the streets, no people walking on the sidewalk or in the park - nothing. Nothing at all.
8 years ago I would go in the park with my bicycle and every time I'd have five or six friends I'd recognize playing around and we'd join up and have fun and talk movies and video games and fool around the park, sometimes start a baseball game. Now, there's no one, nothing. It's all dead. My friends are all gone.
8 years ago the houses around the park would always be nicely decorated for haloween and christmas and during the spring everyone would grow new flowers around their house. Then as the winter approached everyone was removing dead leaves from their lawns and putting them in bags. It was so nice, so neat! But now most of the houses are on sale and have been abandonned for years, almost decaying. This year, like last year and the year before, no one decorated at all during Christmas nor Haloween, no one puts flowers in the spring. And when fall comes, the dead leaves just pile up everywhere and no one takes care of them. No one does anything at all anymore. It's like if everyone is dead.
Damn, what happened? How can this place just... die...? There used to be so many people here... this used to be my home... what happened to it? What happened to my world?
My phone has not rang for so long...
8 years ago I could walk out of my house and the park would be filled with people - kids playing around with their parents watching over, elders taking a walk, some people walking their dogs, a bunch of teenagers playing street hockey... I would just walk out of my house and I would almost always meet four or five people I know and join them in the fun, then we'd go to one of the guys' house and order pizza and watch movies and play videogames all evening.
8 years ago everything was fun, I had a goal in life and everything was working fine and I was enjoying myself with my friends and family.
But now it's just... dead. Everything seems dead. I live alone. I walk out of my house and walk around the park - there is no one. No one. The little kids playing around have disapeared, the people walking their dogs or the teens playing street hockey... everyone is gone. The place is dead. The park used to be filled with flowers, stone structures, bushes, trees... but even that is dead. There are no flowers anymore (the city used to put new flowers every year but they've stopped so it's just dirty soil that hasn't been cleaned for years), the stone structures are destroyed, most of the trees have been chopped off, the bushes have dried up, the grass is dirty and full of patches... this is the park I grew up in, this is the park where my parents took me when I was too young to walk, the park where I would go every day during every summer during my childhood and teenage years. I met all my friends there and I had so much fun there... and now, the place looks like a forsaken desert.
My world has died. There's nothing left. Even the wooden benches in the park are broken. This morning I walked around in the park and I sat down for nearly two hours just thinking about what the place used to be. I haven't seen a sign of life at all - no cars moving in the streets, no people walking on the sidewalk or in the park - nothing. Nothing at all.
8 years ago I would go in the park with my bicycle and every time I'd have five or six friends I'd recognize playing around and we'd join up and have fun and talk movies and video games and fool around the park, sometimes start a baseball game. Now, there's no one, nothing. It's all dead. My friends are all gone.
8 years ago the houses around the park would always be nicely decorated for haloween and christmas and during the spring everyone would grow new flowers around their house. Then as the winter approached everyone was removing dead leaves from their lawns and putting them in bags. It was so nice, so neat! But now most of the houses are on sale and have been abandonned for years, almost decaying. This year, like last year and the year before, no one decorated at all during Christmas nor Haloween, no one puts flowers in the spring. And when fall comes, the dead leaves just pile up everywhere and no one takes care of them. No one does anything at all anymore. It's like if everyone is dead.
Damn, what happened? How can this place just... die...? There used to be so many people here... this used to be my home... what happened to it? What happened to my world?
My phone has not rang for so long...
