I cannot make excuses for myself. I've made many many posts and threads here and, although i do feel im improving, im not taking the essential risks that i need to take in order to hook up. I try to convince myself that I will take that big risk every weekend but i never do. Thats why I have to punish myself by not using the computer.
I'm leaving for Spain in 5 days with a huge group of other American kids that I don't know. Hopefully, that will help me. I need to just leave this site because (although this site has enlightened me and made me realize how many things i've been doing wrong), I'm not taking those risks, im not truly living. I need to turn my life around somehow but I feel like In order to do that I need to leave the country for awhile and return a totally new person. I'm not able to change overnight like some others might be able to do. Therefore, im starting by not using a computer from now until thursday and throughout the whole month of july when im in Spain.
I just feel like im less of a man when I see my friends hooking up with chicks they just met at a party and i dont. ANd the worst part is, i know im better looking than most of them. Theres something funny about me andi dont know if this means im lacking confidence or not: I think that im very handsome, but i think that most girls dont like my type. That's kind of ironic because i think im very attractive yet i dont think people find me attractive. Anyways, wish me luck, because I know i have potential, and I have to use it.
I'm leaving for Spain in 5 days with a huge group of other American kids that I don't know. Hopefully, that will help me. I need to just leave this site because (although this site has enlightened me and made me realize how many things i've been doing wrong), I'm not taking those risks, im not truly living. I need to turn my life around somehow but I feel like In order to do that I need to leave the country for awhile and return a totally new person. I'm not able to change overnight like some others might be able to do. Therefore, im starting by not using a computer from now until thursday and throughout the whole month of july when im in Spain.
I just feel like im less of a man when I see my friends hooking up with chicks they just met at a party and i dont. ANd the worst part is, i know im better looking than most of them. Theres something funny about me andi dont know if this means im lacking confidence or not: I think that im very handsome, but i think that most girls dont like my type. That's kind of ironic because i think im very attractive yet i dont think people find me attractive. Anyways, wish me luck, because I know i have potential, and I have to use it.
