Dude, I don't know where you've been your whole life, but I've got news for ya, just about every player here(and men in general) has the love/hate(I'd rather not use the word "hate" when describing my dislike for a lot of women, but I'll use it for purposes of this discussion, because it flows better) relationship thing going with women, feeling the exact feelings you describe up top in the beginning of your paragraph. I "want" them because as a human being, as a man, I obviously need women to function; to have a healthy, functioning sex life, the way I need food and water; I "dislike" a lot of them, because they do things for their own selfish gratification at your expense; and of course I want their "approval", for purposes of being able to attract and f*ck them. You're telling me most player's out there and men in general overall, don't feel this way?
The feelings you describe up top are all part of the game. Like it's been said before, the sexe's were meant to be complimentary to one another, not the other way around. We are technically rivals of one another; maybe not "rivals" in the way that we're typically familiar with, but men and women ARE rivals. We are just rivals on a whole other level.
And I couldn't be more at peace with myself. I love everything about myself. I love the man I've become(or am becoming). If I could make love to myself, I would, hahaha. You get what I'm saying though.
And one other thing you might want to make note of: you'll never know anyone here, so you might want to re-consider trying to think you've "figured a poster out" without knowing a single thing about him, without seeing him operate in the field, other than what he says here on a message board, because it is futile. An open mind goes a long way.