Magnatolia
Don Juan
Hi All,
I am able to hold eye contact with a woman when I'm passing her, even if she holds my eye until I've gone past which is an improvement on previous times.
Unfortunately I don't do anything else, it's not as if I'm telling myself not to do anything, I just don't. This makes it really frustrating because there is no particular issue that crops up at the time that I can concentrate my efforts on.
I'm deliberately holding attention with woman now, I just can't do anything else - smile, say hi, etc. If I actually see an attractive woman, I have thoughts such as 'she won't want me to talk to her', 'if she wants to talk, she'll do something/anything to let me know', or 'If I ask her a question, and she answers but doesn't try to make light talk, then she doesn't want to talk'. Absolute doozies aren't they?
Then there's the problem I have with simple things like asking a colleague (semi-attractive girl, no spark from me) to have lunch, it took me 10 minutes to get the courage (and yet, in my head it was like I 'knew' I would eventually ask her???) or the girl I worked with for a week and it took me 30 minutes to ask if she wanted to stay in contact after she left. Even though she said yes, I haven't heard from her since she left.
I also have a really bad habit of judging people's opinions of me way too early. Generally this only happens in they're attractive. A new colleague for example. I usually get the impression that they don't like me so I don't put in a lot of effort and then I realise later that my brain simply overanalysed. For example, if they don't smile at me straight away I imagine that they're scowling and relate this to myself.
Unfortunately my problems aren't only related to dating, I also have few friends. Probably because of the above issues. Off-hand I've got one friend who I only met because we were both early for a meeting one day and started talking. We've been emailing each other for a few months now - that's probably the longest email friendship I've had.
I think my over-analysis problem is caused not only from events in the past but the fact that I have hardly any friends - which I suppose my brain would mark the lack of results as a sign that the way I do things isn't good so I don't do it, therefore I don't get the results.
But, take a work situation where I've been 'forced' to communicate with someone, by force I mean for example I have to train a new person. I can generally handle it reasonably well. It's like I've got this built-in 'survival' mechanism. The girl I mentioned that I was working with for a week. She was on reception and I only had to sit with her for a day or two but I ended up sitting with her for the whole week because she was so interesting and we were both laughing a lot. It was the first time I've ever had a week-long conversation that went really well, and I never once questioned myself or got squeamish up until the point I asked to stay friends, as mentioned above.
I can handle chit-chat okay, it seems that if I want to take things further (lunch, hangout, etc) I get squeamish (maybe it has something to do with them having the power to say no. The other day I asked the girl to lunch and she said no. I immediately thought to myself 'I hope she doesn't think I was cracking onto her' and 'I hope I asked her the right way' (whatever the right way is). Then for the next couple of hours I watched her reactions to me to see if she was acting different (like if she thought I was interested in her, and didn't like that fact).
Well, that's enough rambling from me. Anyone who has the chance to read through this, your time is greatly appreciated.
I know the best solution would be to 'get over it and just do something' but the fact is I don't know what I actually need to 'get over'. If it's a pass-by and I simply stare, there's no real thoughts going through my head that would indicate why I can't do anything else, I guess it's to do with my problem of advancing and to me going from staring to a smile is an advance, albeit a small one.
Please provide any ideas on what you recommend I do to get myself out of this rut.
Thanks heaps,
J
I am able to hold eye contact with a woman when I'm passing her, even if she holds my eye until I've gone past which is an improvement on previous times.
Unfortunately I don't do anything else, it's not as if I'm telling myself not to do anything, I just don't. This makes it really frustrating because there is no particular issue that crops up at the time that I can concentrate my efforts on.
I'm deliberately holding attention with woman now, I just can't do anything else - smile, say hi, etc. If I actually see an attractive woman, I have thoughts such as 'she won't want me to talk to her', 'if she wants to talk, she'll do something/anything to let me know', or 'If I ask her a question, and she answers but doesn't try to make light talk, then she doesn't want to talk'. Absolute doozies aren't they?
Then there's the problem I have with simple things like asking a colleague (semi-attractive girl, no spark from me) to have lunch, it took me 10 minutes to get the courage (and yet, in my head it was like I 'knew' I would eventually ask her???) or the girl I worked with for a week and it took me 30 minutes to ask if she wanted to stay in contact after she left. Even though she said yes, I haven't heard from her since she left.
I also have a really bad habit of judging people's opinions of me way too early. Generally this only happens in they're attractive. A new colleague for example. I usually get the impression that they don't like me so I don't put in a lot of effort and then I realise later that my brain simply overanalysed. For example, if they don't smile at me straight away I imagine that they're scowling and relate this to myself.
Unfortunately my problems aren't only related to dating, I also have few friends. Probably because of the above issues. Off-hand I've got one friend who I only met because we were both early for a meeting one day and started talking. We've been emailing each other for a few months now - that's probably the longest email friendship I've had.
I think my over-analysis problem is caused not only from events in the past but the fact that I have hardly any friends - which I suppose my brain would mark the lack of results as a sign that the way I do things isn't good so I don't do it, therefore I don't get the results.
But, take a work situation where I've been 'forced' to communicate with someone, by force I mean for example I have to train a new person. I can generally handle it reasonably well. It's like I've got this built-in 'survival' mechanism. The girl I mentioned that I was working with for a week. She was on reception and I only had to sit with her for a day or two but I ended up sitting with her for the whole week because she was so interesting and we were both laughing a lot. It was the first time I've ever had a week-long conversation that went really well, and I never once questioned myself or got squeamish up until the point I asked to stay friends, as mentioned above.
I can handle chit-chat okay, it seems that if I want to take things further (lunch, hangout, etc) I get squeamish (maybe it has something to do with them having the power to say no. The other day I asked the girl to lunch and she said no. I immediately thought to myself 'I hope she doesn't think I was cracking onto her' and 'I hope I asked her the right way' (whatever the right way is). Then for the next couple of hours I watched her reactions to me to see if she was acting different (like if she thought I was interested in her, and didn't like that fact).
Well, that's enough rambling from me. Anyone who has the chance to read through this, your time is greatly appreciated.
I know the best solution would be to 'get over it and just do something' but the fact is I don't know what I actually need to 'get over'. If it's a pass-by and I simply stare, there's no real thoughts going through my head that would indicate why I can't do anything else, I guess it's to do with my problem of advancing and to me going from staring to a smile is an advance, albeit a small one.
Please provide any ideas on what you recommend I do to get myself out of this rut.
Thanks heaps,
J