Ok allow me to clarify a few things then...
First of all I'd just like to say that i've read ALL the posts, and taken everything in to reasonable consideration, and that I DO appreciate you all taking the time to reply. Fair enough?
I have no problem discussing this actively on the board...
Like i said, she disappeared, which i found disgruntling and quite upsetting, and so that is exactly what i told her. That i did not appreciate this. She did apologise for this and acknowledged that it was inconsiderate, but at the same time keeps dodging with the 'i was strapped for time' bullcrap.. So her apology i felt was less than sincere.
ANYWAYS
I did not put much stock into her after this, and so I simply kept things 'light' from that point on and gave her some room to breath and think.
During this time she showed 'some' interest. Interest as in she initiate a dialogue with me whenever i left her alone for a couple of days. Interest such as suggesting a get together over the weekends.
However, regardless of her actions that would suggest she was trying to close in again, her behavior was very aloof.
I got tired of playing that game, and felt like i wanted to make a decision to either put her her in a position where she'd have to decide one way or the other, or to just walk away. I did not entirely feel ready to walk away, and so i opted to put her in a decision making position.
I did so by talking to her, voicing my concerns that I felt she was blowing cold wind.
At first she denied it.. everything was fine, she loved me, thought about me. I gave her some more time, and then confronted her about it again because nothing had changed. This time she mixed an excuse ****tail of 'I've been busy' and 'I'm feeling a little insecure'.
What i did next was to simply give her confirmation, and made myself more available to her. My train of thought was that if she's feeling insecure about the relationship, i can put her at ease by letting her notice that I'm giving her a lot of attention.
Nothing changed, so after some time, i once again squeezed her for a straight answer, and this time she produced it, and told me that something had 'changed' between us, that she didn't really know what but that she felt different around me, and then suggested that we 'take a break'.
I was as honest as possible with her, and said that I did not really believe in breaks as 'solutions' and that I was assuming that if either of us met someone new during this 'break' that we would both simply move on in that situation.
She didn't disagree, but also expressed that apparently i had already made up my mind, and requested that we would continue to be honest with each other.
Well ok... So as far the situation to this day... we are on 'a break'. That's just fine, and what i said still goes... If someone else comes along, i'll not hesitate, but i'm not sure if the same goes for her, because she's already expressed an interest in meeting me again.
She's playing a weird game and to be honest i'm not sure what it is. I do know however that i'm tired of playing this game with her, and no longer wish to do so, and so i will move on.
The only thing I haven't decided on yet is if I'm going to be 'honest' with her and tell her i'm moving on, or if I'm just going to do it and let her find out on her own.
I guess the way i see it is... I've given her my attention and I've given her my quality time, and apparently it is not appreciated, so now, if she wants my attention, or my quality time, then she'll just have to work for it. If she doesn't then I'm not simply going to 'give' it to her either, and I don't feel like i need to let her off the hook by officially breaking up with her.
The truth of the matter is that i do not WANT to break up with her. I liked her, and i still have some feelings for her. I do however understand that for my own sake, i must move on. The point is that I'm not giving her the easy way out. If she wants an official statement, then she's just going have to take responsibility and DUMP me. If she doesn't then i guess our level of interaction will simply weather away to non-existence.
But I have at present no desire to give her the easy way out and the perfect excuse to move on gut free by pulling the plug on her. If she wants to move on, then she can do it the hard way, just like me.
I hope this makes things more clear...
I would also like to add that when i first posted this topic that i had not been able to squeeze a straight answer out of her yet, and so i was still under the impression that she simply needed confirmation, but i was already smelling a rat, so i came here looking for insight.
