got myself wayy pissed up tonight

[mr.uk]

life seems hard to cope with at the moment. im just holding out for uni in october. all the people i see are people that remind me of my old AFC self because im stuck in the same old town where ive known everyone ages.
works ok but has very little social element and friday nights are my only time to socialise so i pressurise myself to be at my best which causes anxiety and so i drink alot...hence why im pissed now. i feel like a total mess. im just not happy with life an i think everyone can see that in my body language.

what annoys me is that i know i have loads of potential but my anxiety gets in the way.

i lost my v plates at 15..havent had sex since an im now 18 now how bad is that!! how am i supposed to cope with the next few months? socially i am a bit of a disgrace. this is stuff that i can only seem to confront when ive had alot of alcohol. help please!!!

 

[BlakeW5]

Just gotta tough it out for awhile man, you'll be stronger and better for it. I'm in the same spot now. I recently graduated from college and I'm now back at home until I can start nursing school in the fall.... if I get in. If I don't I'm scared that I'll be screwed as all I can see right now is time flying by that I'll never get back.

Now my hometown is a trap. It's a small Kentucky town where everyone is content to just get by. I have plenty of friends here, but I feel like I'm starting to outgrow them. I can be the fun guy I actually am around them, but I can't express my intellectual side, which is a large part of who I am, because they don't/won't/can't understand it. Every time we hang out they get drunk and act like juveniles before going back to their dead-end jobs throughout the week (which they admit they hate). It's hard on me because I try to help them, but they're content to waste their lives and it bothers me because they're still close friends and I love them like brothers but they refuse to be what I know they're capable of. The few friends I have that I can be COMPLETELY myself around I never see much, and most are in the process of getting married and having children.

As far as girls around here? There are none really. All the attractive, worthwhile chicks desert the place the first chance they get. The others are the worthless, drunk, instigator, got pregnant in highschool types that I refuse to associate with.

Just make the best of your situation. I'm having to do the same right now. When I finally get back in school I can get a real job, make money, and get the hell out of here.

Until then play with the hand you're dealt, and if you get a sh%tty hand changes the rules.

 

[Bible_Belt]

I am from a small town like both of you. I felt the same way about my hometown, until I got to move away and live in a city for several years. Getting away for a while will give you perspective. I ended up moving back to the same small town, and now I like it much better here. But I never would have felt this way had I not lived somewhere else. I have realized that there is fun, and fun women, to be had everywhere.