I'm going to try to keep this short and sweet. I'm turning twenty this year, and my date is 21. I met her in one of my classes and I had a perfect opportunity to talk to her, and I took it. After class, we grabbed some coffee and hung out for an hour and half - until my next class.
A week later, we had breakfast together at a local restaurant after that same class. This is when I asked her out (asked her if she wanted to go the movies and have lunch at my place). She agreed. I cooked lunch in her presence. And trust me, she loved the food; I'm a good cook to many girls' surprise.
I never had a serious girlfriend that I cared about. And, I never felt anything like the way I did when I saw her and spent time with her. I had a great time. The only problem is that I was way to nervous throughout the date and the little "hang outs." It was my first date that I ever had with someone that I didn't really know - do you understand? I've been with a handful of girls in the past, but when I went out I knew them well so it wasn't a scary experience. I didn't have butterflies. I didn't worry. I just went out to have a good time. Furthermore, those girls were just girls to me. I didn't really care, so I just went to have fun - and I did.
With this girl, it was the complete opposite. I wasn't used to dealing with the overflow of emotions, and trying to communicate with her. I was overwhelmed with worry, doubt and trying to figure out if she liked me. I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't really have a good time you know? I was awkward. And, I bet I came off shy.
I used to be a shy person, but lately, I've been coming out. I've came a long way, and I want to really show her that. She doesn't really know me for who I am because I did a bad job of showing it to her. I was too busy worrying.
However, I honestly don't think it was a HORRIBLE date. It was decent, though it wasn't reflective of who I am. I'm not surprised she didnt fall for me. I didn't make any jokes or anything. I was just there. I hate myself for being that way, but it's too late. It's in the past.
I want to get a second date. But I don't know how to go about doing this. Especially after how i closed the night. After dropping her off, I came back ten-15 minutes later and asked her to come downstairs. This is when I tried to go for a kiss. I was cheeked. She was surprised that I could like her after one day.
Today in class she talked to me, but she didn't make an effort to go for coffee. I've always asked, but I was hoping she would make the initiative.
I emailed her today asking if she's busy (my phone is broken, so that's the only means of communication). I want to fix this, and really show her my true DJ-self.
I just don't know how...what to do... I'm so frustrated... she's an awesome girl, I want to figure out a way to make this work. And not only to make it work for her, but ALSO for me to get over this PROBLEM. If I can fix this situation, I would be unstoppable. I would truly have confidence.
A week later, we had breakfast together at a local restaurant after that same class. This is when I asked her out (asked her if she wanted to go the movies and have lunch at my place). She agreed. I cooked lunch in her presence. And trust me, she loved the food; I'm a good cook to many girls' surprise.
I never had a serious girlfriend that I cared about. And, I never felt anything like the way I did when I saw her and spent time with her. I had a great time. The only problem is that I was way to nervous throughout the date and the little "hang outs." It was my first date that I ever had with someone that I didn't really know - do you understand? I've been with a handful of girls in the past, but when I went out I knew them well so it wasn't a scary experience. I didn't have butterflies. I didn't worry. I just went out to have a good time. Furthermore, those girls were just girls to me. I didn't really care, so I just went to have fun - and I did.
With this girl, it was the complete opposite. I wasn't used to dealing with the overflow of emotions, and trying to communicate with her. I was overwhelmed with worry, doubt and trying to figure out if she liked me. I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't really have a good time you know? I was awkward. And, I bet I came off shy.
I used to be a shy person, but lately, I've been coming out. I've came a long way, and I want to really show her that. She doesn't really know me for who I am because I did a bad job of showing it to her. I was too busy worrying.
However, I honestly don't think it was a HORRIBLE date. It was decent, though it wasn't reflective of who I am. I'm not surprised she didnt fall for me. I didn't make any jokes or anything. I was just there. I hate myself for being that way, but it's too late. It's in the past.
I want to get a second date. But I don't know how to go about doing this. Especially after how i closed the night. After dropping her off, I came back ten-15 minutes later and asked her to come downstairs. This is when I tried to go for a kiss. I was cheeked. She was surprised that I could like her after one day.
Today in class she talked to me, but she didn't make an effort to go for coffee. I've always asked, but I was hoping she would make the initiative.
I emailed her today asking if she's busy (my phone is broken, so that's the only means of communication). I want to fix this, and really show her my true DJ-self.
I just don't know how...what to do... I'm so frustrated... she's an awesome girl, I want to figure out a way to make this work. And not only to make it work for her, but ALSO for me to get over this PROBLEM. If I can fix this situation, I would be unstoppable. I would truly have confidence.