Wow, my worst fears regarding a girl came true last night
OK, long story short. I had been seeing this HB 8.5 for a while. We'd been hanging out more and more. She stops by last night to give me some sushi and bubble tea from her work place and she winds up staying for a long time.
We started out just talking and laughing, just generally goofing around. I dont remember too much in terms of specifics but it wasnt very sexual. The most sexual thing up til this point is this game we played called foot, where we put our feet together and try to push the other over. Some game she used to play when she was a kid.
Anyway, she was lying on my floor since my bed is lofted and I decide I need to get her on my bed, so I just bend down and pick her up and put her on it, (harder than I thought actually). No resistance.
Later Im up there with here sitting right next to her. I started showing her how to play some things on the guitar. I had my arm around her helping her get the fingering patterns and everything. She definitely seemed into this.
I decide to take it a bit further. I put the guitar back in the stand and just put my arm around her and pull her close. Everything is going great at this point. She's in my bed cuddling, were alone, Im stroking her hair... I decide to go for the kiss.
Se she leans over to change the music and when she sits back down, I kiss her. First one she seems a little hesitant. Second one she's smling. Third she's laughing. Then she's really not into it. She starts talking about how awkward it is.
We have a little discussion where i find out she likes me... not likes me. We also determine that she doesnt just make out with people. I get mad at this point, feeling led on and basically kick her out. it's strange though since before she leaves she still is really clingy and wants to be close to me.
So I make her leave, and go to bed. Then wake up 3 1/2 hours later and go to class.
Its funny though, I felt pissed and disappointed for a little bit, but at the same time I feel relieved. I've had oneitis for this girl for a while now, so now I feel like I can move on.
The worst part though is the feeling like I'm just one of many guys/girls whove hit on her and she's rejected.
Oh well, learning experience.
Thought?
OK, long story short. I had been seeing this HB 8.5 for a while. We'd been hanging out more and more. She stops by last night to give me some sushi and bubble tea from her work place and she winds up staying for a long time.
We started out just talking and laughing, just generally goofing around. I dont remember too much in terms of specifics but it wasnt very sexual. The most sexual thing up til this point is this game we played called foot, where we put our feet together and try to push the other over. Some game she used to play when she was a kid.
Anyway, she was lying on my floor since my bed is lofted and I decide I need to get her on my bed, so I just bend down and pick her up and put her on it, (harder than I thought actually). No resistance.
Later Im up there with here sitting right next to her. I started showing her how to play some things on the guitar. I had my arm around her helping her get the fingering patterns and everything. She definitely seemed into this.
I decide to take it a bit further. I put the guitar back in the stand and just put my arm around her and pull her close. Everything is going great at this point. She's in my bed cuddling, were alone, Im stroking her hair... I decide to go for the kiss.
Se she leans over to change the music and when she sits back down, I kiss her. First one she seems a little hesitant. Second one she's smling. Third she's laughing. Then she's really not into it. She starts talking about how awkward it is.
We have a little discussion where i find out she likes me... not likes me. We also determine that she doesnt just make out with people. I get mad at this point, feeling led on and basically kick her out. it's strange though since before she leaves she still is really clingy and wants to be close to me.
So I make her leave, and go to bed. Then wake up 3 1/2 hours later and go to class.
Its funny though, I felt pissed and disappointed for a little bit, but at the same time I feel relieved. I've had oneitis for this girl for a while now, so now I feel like I can move on.
The worst part though is the feeling like I'm just one of many guys/girls whove hit on her and she's rejected.
Oh well, learning experience.
Thought?
