So tonight i realized some sh!t. I had 3 girls over in my spa who have recently become single. I have been friends with all of them for a while. I didn't end up hooking up with any of them and i just recently realized why. I have been friends with all of them for a while, and because they all recently became single i thought i would be able to hook up. However, about halfway through the night i realized that even though they texted me earlier about getting drunk in my spa, none of them ended up drinking. I then realized that they only used the spa excuse to hang out and talk about their girl problems. They knew i like chilling in the spa and drinking, so they used that to get me into the spa. When they came over they talked about nothing other than their exes and stupid girl stuff. That was when i realized what i was doing. I was becoming the friend who they could use to get what they want. Anyway the lesson is do what you want no matter what. Don't listen to girls, they're all liars. Earlier that night i had dinner with a girl who i had been attracted to but i didn't know if she was attracted to me. But after the dinner when i went home she sent me a text saying. "You're awesome, not gonna lie. " I wish i would have stayed with her, who was a girl who i had previously mentioned to that i had no interest in a relationship, i just want to hook up. I'm just glad that i can now realize things and analyze the situation.