The woman I had been seeing finally had enough. We argued a lot. The last argument was completely AFC of me. She wasn't making time for me and I said she didn't care, didn't respect me, ect. I know I shouldn't have said anything, but should have acted accordingly. I wanted her to start treating me better and know that she couldn't keep me forever if she didn't. I apologized for arguing and gave her space.
Now she is out to show me she doesn't care about me. She posted something on FB to make sure I got the message that she is done as she's not speaking to me. On valentines day no less. She knows it would kill me so she did it to make a point. To be hurtful. I unfriended her immediately.
The thing is, I really did love her. Now her last impression of me is the pathetic little boy who was grumpy, unpleasant, weak, complaining, and she thinks I was only into her for sex (not true, I just equated it to her way of showing me she cared). I don't think she believes I loved her. How could she be so cold to someone that cares about her?
I know all the things I did wrong. I am weak. I don't want to be this person any longer! Y'all will laugh and shake your head, but I lost the love of my life. What's worse is that it was dishonesty, poor emotional maturity and bad behavior/reacting that drove her away. It could have been different. I wasn't anywhere near a good enough MAN. I lack character. That didn't have to be how things went.
Maybe I didn't apologize well enough? Could I have saved it? Do I even care to after she posted what she did? That can't be ignored... She hates me. Can I still love her after this? I want her to know how devastated I am. The pain she is causing. That I loved her. That what she just did was extremely hurtful. I'm so hurt. Maybe if she knew that, it would change her mind. Could she show compassion or rethink giving up someone who loves her? Should I have left her first, knowing she wouldn't chase and would have reacted the same regardless?
I'm just a mess. I'm hurt. I know it's 80% my fault. Why would she be so mean, knowing (maybe she doesn't) that I loved her? How can she be so cruel to someone she once loved?
Now she is out to show me she doesn't care about me. She posted something on FB to make sure I got the message that she is done as she's not speaking to me. On valentines day no less. She knows it would kill me so she did it to make a point. To be hurtful. I unfriended her immediately.
The thing is, I really did love her. Now her last impression of me is the pathetic little boy who was grumpy, unpleasant, weak, complaining, and she thinks I was only into her for sex (not true, I just equated it to her way of showing me she cared). I don't think she believes I loved her. How could she be so cold to someone that cares about her?
I know all the things I did wrong. I am weak. I don't want to be this person any longer! Y'all will laugh and shake your head, but I lost the love of my life. What's worse is that it was dishonesty, poor emotional maturity and bad behavior/reacting that drove her away. It could have been different. I wasn't anywhere near a good enough MAN. I lack character. That didn't have to be how things went.
Maybe I didn't apologize well enough? Could I have saved it? Do I even care to after she posted what she did? That can't be ignored... She hates me. Can I still love her after this? I want her to know how devastated I am. The pain she is causing. That I loved her. That what she just did was extremely hurtful. I'm so hurt. Maybe if she knew that, it would change her mind. Could she show compassion or rethink giving up someone who loves her? Should I have left her first, knowing she wouldn't chase and would have reacted the same regardless?
I'm just a mess. I'm hurt. I know it's 80% my fault. Why would she be so mean, knowing (maybe she doesn't) that I loved her? How can she be so cruel to someone she once loved?