Saul, I live in a top 10 city on the west coast. One of my plates is on the east coast (maybe she's not really a plate after all), one I dropped because I found out she's a drunk and my interest level dropped, another plate canceled a date on me and I've gone ghost for almost two weeks. Bottom line, my plates are falling and I need to get more going.
I'm new to the red pill $hit, and it sucks that now I view all women as cheap replaceable and dishonest. I know in the long run it will help me focus on my mission, myself as the prize, etc. but I'm still adjusting to this new mentality.
Your statement about denying myself is 100% spot on. It's been two months since my last lay and I'm starting to fiend for some sex. Right now its just me and this girl playing music, and she comes to my house twice a week for like 4-5 hours at a time to play music. It's incredible, there's an amazing music connection, and she's sitting there, staring at me, on my couch, all alone, and like you said, I know that at any moment I could slay the fvck out of her and get off. Sexual tension just keeps increasing.