RichardTheFrog
Banned
These are notes from about 12 hours of going from bar to bar yesterday drinking beer after beer... I know this is probably too long for anyone to want to read, but that's to be expected from 12 hours worth of notes.
It was said a little while ago that value can be subjective, so in that case, I am free to place my own subjective value on people.
Any 2 people are psychos after knowing each other for a week. The psycho in the person always comes out.
Not all girls are prostitutes that will have sex for money. Lol. Like the girls working at the bars. Perhaps they may be impressed with a successful guy, but they probably won't fvck you for a few hundred bucks. I think I should start going out more so I get used to it. I used to out a lot in the past few years, but lost interest lately.
Even saying 3 words to someone is better than sitting in complete silence. 1000x better.
With me, the pleasantries of socialization break down in a matter of minutes. It kind of stops me from talking, because if you're too honest, then you are not being polite or politically correct. Like that girl sitting 5 feet away from me with the huge crooked nose who is painted up like she's Cindy Crawford. What am I supposed to do? Tell her that? Or should I just say nothing to her?
I should of course keep trying to make money in my business, but I shouldn't wait to be mega-rich before I try to get some. Maybe they would like a d1ck even better than a rich guy. Maybe a fvck buddy.
Maybe if I started talking more, I would be seen as more socially normal. But I really don't know what to talk about. Seems that people just talk about mundane stuff all day. My face is known in a lot of places down town, but I don't exactly "know" people... like I don't have them on FaceBook or anything. My reputation is kind of ruined from when I was arrested, so I would hate if word got out about that, then I would be seen as an outcast anywhere I went. Best to just keep quiet about it, which of course means I can't truly get to know people if I'm hiding my past, but it is what it is.
At one point, I was feeling old. But that lawyer I posted about was 47 when he was dating that porn star and Neil Strauss was 32 when he started. I'm 30.
What if I had a mansion? Would that help?
Why can't I just be nice? Maybe that would work? But with how negative the world is... people getting blown up, etc... are you gonna put the blame on ME for being negative, like I started it?
Sex isn't worth the investment to me of having a monogamous "girlfriend." It is cheaper, in a lot of ways, to get a hooker. To me, sex with a hooker and a non-hooker is the same.
Other people talk about PEOPLE all day long, it seems. I suppose I just don't find people all that interesting. I don't really desire to know "that guy" or "that girl over there."
I hate hip-hop because it's stupid and only stupid people like it, which seems to be everyone. Seems like every girl in there mouths the words to all the hip-hop songs that come on the speaker like it's important or something. I see that as a sign of stupidity and low value.
When I see girls talk to dogs, it makes me lose all hope in humanity. They would care if their dog died probably more than they cared if I died.
There were tons of guys with large muscles that didn't seem to be doing well. I really think it would be a waste of time for me to spend lots of time in the gym. I think a change in attitude would be more important if I were ever to have success.
I am deep, dark, and disturbed. Especially after having drank quite a few beers. It takes me several beers to even know what my emotions are, especially in such a chaotic place.
Society is fvcked up. There were female security guards as if they're gonna do anything.
After going out, I don't think height is that much of an issue. I saw guys that were not tall with girls. And, yes, I did see lots of tall guys with girls as well. But I think it would be a mistake to obsess about my 5'7.5" height. Nothing I can do about it. I don't think looks are the issue, either. I think it has much more to do with personality, although I could be wrong. I really don't know.
Heck, maybe THEY are the problem! Maybe it's their pretentiousness and thinking their sh1t doesn't stink. Overvaluing themselves and their pu$$y/sexuality to ridiculous extremes.
There is no point in pursuing something that I don't value. I see a bunch of 4's and 5's walking around painted up acting like they're supermodels. It's pretty ridiculous actually. Yet there is nothing in the world that can stop me from waking up thinking about sex every day. It's just biology. I can assign my own subjective value to people even if you call me delusional.
Plus, monogamy is unnatural and annoying anyway.
Can you imagine if you (a guy) were to walk around thinking that your BUTT gave you value? Ridiculous. Like, literally, where your sh1t comes from.
I had no fun really. I wasn't impressed by any of the customers or bartenders. I didn't think they were special or interesting. Although I'm sure they thought the world of themselves.
Most girls would not give me the kind of sex I would want, anyway, even if they were to have sex with me. And definitely not ON MY DEMAND. So what am I really after anyway?
There used to be a lawyer that went down town all the time. Different one than I talked about earlier. He was 36 and always around young girls. Everyone knew him as a rich guy. If I started making money flipping houses, maybe I could do the same? If I would have the desire to? But my reputation is ruined from the arrest when I was younger.
At one point, everyone looked like a bunch of little kids jumping up and down at the result of sports games on TV. Honestly, what's important here?
Even when 1-on-1, I'm not motivated to approach in any sexual way.
It takes me 12 beers to be even a little bit extroverted. Most people are 100x more extroverted even when sober.
I wish they (females) could show me something more than dancing around like an idiot to a bunch of stupid hip-hop songs. Yet I still am the one who has to "impress" them? And "work on myself" and all that nonsense? Ridiculous.
At one point, some girls came up to me and asked me if I'm okay because I'm quiet. I just said "yea." And they stood around me for a few seconds, but I didn't talk to them any more. All they have to do is show me the slightest bit of respect like this, and all the anger goes away. I actually had a slightly funner time after just being talked to for 1 second like that. It improved my mood by about 1000x.
There are "hot" girls everywhere. Or at least there are girls who can dress themselves up to look hot for a night. You can see 100's or even 1000's on any given weekend night down town. No shortage. I can't "connect" with a single one. I don't even know what "connect" means, really.
I am not really motivated to make "that girl" into "my girl."
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Then, today, I was bored and decided to go to a hooker. Something I haven't done in months. It's fun. No anger, no bu11Sh!t. Just sex. She was decent looking, but once you've been with enough people.... how "good" can someone look with their a$$ pointing at you. It's just an a$$ and a pu$$y. Not rocket science or anything special. And, of course, she asked why I had an implant at such a young age.
I am kind of motivated to call another one, but I don't want to spend that much money in one day. I wish I could have sex with non-hookers on demand like that. Like I could just call them up and ask if they want to fvck and they'll say "sure." I'm not sure if that will ever be reality for me, but I'm also not sure if that's reality for ANY GUY. It seems like it's asking a lot. Maybe 1 in a million guys can do that, or someone in a position of power like Genghis Khan or Fidel Castro.
It was said a little while ago that value can be subjective, so in that case, I am free to place my own subjective value on people.
Any 2 people are psychos after knowing each other for a week. The psycho in the person always comes out.
Not all girls are prostitutes that will have sex for money. Lol. Like the girls working at the bars. Perhaps they may be impressed with a successful guy, but they probably won't fvck you for a few hundred bucks. I think I should start going out more so I get used to it. I used to out a lot in the past few years, but lost interest lately.
Even saying 3 words to someone is better than sitting in complete silence. 1000x better.
With me, the pleasantries of socialization break down in a matter of minutes. It kind of stops me from talking, because if you're too honest, then you are not being polite or politically correct. Like that girl sitting 5 feet away from me with the huge crooked nose who is painted up like she's Cindy Crawford. What am I supposed to do? Tell her that? Or should I just say nothing to her?
I should of course keep trying to make money in my business, but I shouldn't wait to be mega-rich before I try to get some. Maybe they would like a d1ck even better than a rich guy. Maybe a fvck buddy.
Maybe if I started talking more, I would be seen as more socially normal. But I really don't know what to talk about. Seems that people just talk about mundane stuff all day. My face is known in a lot of places down town, but I don't exactly "know" people... like I don't have them on FaceBook or anything. My reputation is kind of ruined from when I was arrested, so I would hate if word got out about that, then I would be seen as an outcast anywhere I went. Best to just keep quiet about it, which of course means I can't truly get to know people if I'm hiding my past, but it is what it is.
At one point, I was feeling old. But that lawyer I posted about was 47 when he was dating that porn star and Neil Strauss was 32 when he started. I'm 30.
What if I had a mansion? Would that help?
Why can't I just be nice? Maybe that would work? But with how negative the world is... people getting blown up, etc... are you gonna put the blame on ME for being negative, like I started it?
Sex isn't worth the investment to me of having a monogamous "girlfriend." It is cheaper, in a lot of ways, to get a hooker. To me, sex with a hooker and a non-hooker is the same.
Other people talk about PEOPLE all day long, it seems. I suppose I just don't find people all that interesting. I don't really desire to know "that guy" or "that girl over there."
I hate hip-hop because it's stupid and only stupid people like it, which seems to be everyone. Seems like every girl in there mouths the words to all the hip-hop songs that come on the speaker like it's important or something. I see that as a sign of stupidity and low value.
When I see girls talk to dogs, it makes me lose all hope in humanity. They would care if their dog died probably more than they cared if I died.
There were tons of guys with large muscles that didn't seem to be doing well. I really think it would be a waste of time for me to spend lots of time in the gym. I think a change in attitude would be more important if I were ever to have success.
I am deep, dark, and disturbed. Especially after having drank quite a few beers. It takes me several beers to even know what my emotions are, especially in such a chaotic place.
Society is fvcked up. There were female security guards as if they're gonna do anything.
After going out, I don't think height is that much of an issue. I saw guys that were not tall with girls. And, yes, I did see lots of tall guys with girls as well. But I think it would be a mistake to obsess about my 5'7.5" height. Nothing I can do about it. I don't think looks are the issue, either. I think it has much more to do with personality, although I could be wrong. I really don't know.
Heck, maybe THEY are the problem! Maybe it's their pretentiousness and thinking their sh1t doesn't stink. Overvaluing themselves and their pu$$y/sexuality to ridiculous extremes.
There is no point in pursuing something that I don't value. I see a bunch of 4's and 5's walking around painted up acting like they're supermodels. It's pretty ridiculous actually. Yet there is nothing in the world that can stop me from waking up thinking about sex every day. It's just biology. I can assign my own subjective value to people even if you call me delusional.
Plus, monogamy is unnatural and annoying anyway.
Can you imagine if you (a guy) were to walk around thinking that your BUTT gave you value? Ridiculous. Like, literally, where your sh1t comes from.
I had no fun really. I wasn't impressed by any of the customers or bartenders. I didn't think they were special or interesting. Although I'm sure they thought the world of themselves.
Most girls would not give me the kind of sex I would want, anyway, even if they were to have sex with me. And definitely not ON MY DEMAND. So what am I really after anyway?
There used to be a lawyer that went down town all the time. Different one than I talked about earlier. He was 36 and always around young girls. Everyone knew him as a rich guy. If I started making money flipping houses, maybe I could do the same? If I would have the desire to? But my reputation is ruined from the arrest when I was younger.
At one point, everyone looked like a bunch of little kids jumping up and down at the result of sports games on TV. Honestly, what's important here?
Even when 1-on-1, I'm not motivated to approach in any sexual way.
It takes me 12 beers to be even a little bit extroverted. Most people are 100x more extroverted even when sober.
I wish they (females) could show me something more than dancing around like an idiot to a bunch of stupid hip-hop songs. Yet I still am the one who has to "impress" them? And "work on myself" and all that nonsense? Ridiculous.
At one point, some girls came up to me and asked me if I'm okay because I'm quiet. I just said "yea." And they stood around me for a few seconds, but I didn't talk to them any more. All they have to do is show me the slightest bit of respect like this, and all the anger goes away. I actually had a slightly funner time after just being talked to for 1 second like that. It improved my mood by about 1000x.
There are "hot" girls everywhere. Or at least there are girls who can dress themselves up to look hot for a night. You can see 100's or even 1000's on any given weekend night down town. No shortage. I can't "connect" with a single one. I don't even know what "connect" means, really.
I am not really motivated to make "that girl" into "my girl."
____________________________________________________________________________
Then, today, I was bored and decided to go to a hooker. Something I haven't done in months. It's fun. No anger, no bu11Sh!t. Just sex. She was decent looking, but once you've been with enough people.... how "good" can someone look with their a$$ pointing at you. It's just an a$$ and a pu$$y. Not rocket science or anything special. And, of course, she asked why I had an implant at such a young age.
I am kind of motivated to call another one, but I don't want to spend that much money in one day. I wish I could have sex with non-hookers on demand like that. Like I could just call them up and ask if they want to fvck and they'll say "sure." I'm not sure if that will ever be reality for me, but I'm also not sure if that's reality for ANY GUY. It seems like it's asking a lot. Maybe 1 in a million guys can do that, or someone in a position of power like Genghis Khan or Fidel Castro.
