People, don't fail, they quit. There is a big difference between the two. You only fail, when you stop trying. As cliche as it sounds it's true. IF you want to count, getting conned out of every dime we had, having to live out of a car, being kicked out my house becuase we had no money, not having enough money to buy inventory to handle orders and having to shut down for a month to gather money, spending thousands fo dollars on computers you knew you were going to sale but had to end up basically parting them out becuase you could not get rid of them and various other circumstances that I don't have time to get into.. lol, one really.. .actually 2 really nasty ones in particular, that damn near brought me to my knees at one point.. hell I failed probably close to 15 or 20 times lol. But no one cares about that, I never quit, and as long as I had skin in the game i was not a failure. You eventually, will catch your break as long as you keep trying and you will not be a failure. Oh, but i' failed, hard. very hard lol. lots and lots of times.
let me put it in perspective of how bad I had "failed' by the time I didn't fail. My bank had my on chexsystems becuase I owed them money. I had 1 pair of shoes. I had like a 450 credit score lol. I slept on an inflatable air mattresses on the floor. I had a 19 inch tv and didnt' even have a stand to put it on, it sat floor level with me in my room. My car, was half bashed in and barley ran, and at the time, the day I knew that all that was going to change, I probably had 4 or 5 days worth of food in the pantry. I had "failed" by everyone's definition. But I had the foresight to see and know, even when I was flat broke that we werent' far off, we just hadn't gotten it right yet. But I knew we would eventually get it right, and we did.
It's no different than drug addiction. I used to be a drug addict, a bad one at one point. I don't do drugs anymore. Haven't for half a decade. You would say I am a successful recovering addit?well what about the 3 times I went into impatient becuase I kept relapsing? What about all the nights I swore off drugs only to run to the ATM that night and bang down my dealers door for dope? That's at least 20 times lol. What about the time I looked my oneitis in the face and told her I wasn't using, and the second she walked out the door I pulled the pipe out of my pocket and took a big fat ass hit lol? Or what about the time I moved all the way to Florida to get away from the drugs, only to get so racked up for drugs I cruised the streets utnil i found someone that looked like an addict and made me take them to score some dope? you want to talk about feeling like a failure, I never felt lower in my life, then moving to sarasota to get away from the little rock dope scene, only to blow it 2 weeks after I got there and spend about a grand on dope in 3 nights.. do you now how bad that comedown is, knowing that you tried to run from your problems, and having to realize that you are the ****ing problem? I never felt worse in my life, than that morning when I was out of dope, and while I still had plenty of money, just wasn't even getting high anymore i had smoked so much. And even then, sitting on the hotel floor crying my eyes out, sleepy, hungry, high as a ****ing kite, i wasn't a failure. I just hadn't gotten it right yet, i hadn't approached the problem in the correct way.
like drug addiction, too many people quit what they are trying to break through in, before they get it right. I've seen addicts, you can just see it in their eyes, just that look of hopelessness that, this is my life, they have given up all hope, beucase ethey hyave tired a few times, maybe even more than a few times to quit and couldn't and have just conceeded to the fact that this is who they are now, an addict. Well i'm here to tell you, that, like drug addiciton, you can do it. Whatever it is i don't care. But no one said it would be easy, no one said it wouldn't' require you to work your ****ign ass off, and no one said it wouldnt' require you to make sacrifices.
I properly failed, well over 50 times at least in my recovery. But, eventually, I didn't fail. I eventually got it and it stuck. The truth is, i never was a failure, I just had not got it yet.
I assure you, i'm not stupid but i'm not any smarter than anyone here, I'm a pretty common guy in that regard. Yes I probably work harder and i push myself but I'm not a genius or anything. But, I don't quit. I am just that damn stubborn. "Rather it be starting a business, or a web development company, or chasing a girl (that character trait, the stubbornness to not give up is why i chased my oneitis as long as I did), or kicking a nasty drug habit. I will get it.
The problem with most people is not that they fail, but when they fail, they don't make the necessary changes to reattack the problem to succeed.
Not for everyone. And that's for you, all the **** I went through, it is called **** for a reason. But, there is no laws on who can or who cannot succeed. I cannot let a post like that go by without commenting on it because it's just not true. And I don't say that in a sense, to try to prove you wrong or to pump my chest out by any stretch, if you decide that you are not a risk taker, good for you, don't take risks. But nothing peeves me off more than people who go out of their way to discourage people from taking risks by telling them what is and is not possible.
I see a head doctor once every 2 weeks, I have for quite a while, part of my drug recovery, and it helps with other issues I have. She is convinced, that I have borderline personality disorder. I don't even disagree with her at this poinht, but i refuse to take any mediation for it. we got into an interesting convo one day, about a year ago, that the same things that she calls my issues, are the same things, the good things, that make me the person I am today. Whens something gets on my mind, I'm obsessed with it. It's all I think about, to the point where i will lock myself in a room to figure it out. I do nothing half assed. when I wanted to lose weight i worked out for about 4 hours a day and in 2 months I had shed close to 40 pounds. Whatever it is, I have to figure it out. That is part of what makes me me. It's how I am wired. There is no moving on lol. At that point, risks, consequences of taking risks, aren't as important to me as figuring out what needs to be done. What I am getting at is, I very well could just be wired differently. I have a predisposition to risk taking that I just don't see in other people. I can spend 5k grand of a 20 grand bankroll on 1 horse race, lose, and honestly not bat an eye. I've done it more than once. (true story, last year's breeders cup, there were 3 races, that in my mind were stone cold locks, all on the 2nd day. The first one was the mile, but the odds, I couldn't take so I passed the race. She won for fun. The second, was the breeders cup turf, I did not see a way that the fav was going to lose and If I a recall, and I found the odds acceptable, I went to 20% of my bankroll, which i won't get into the amount but it is big boy money. Lost the race, I knew i had lost when they hit the turn. She ahd never seen me wager that much, I didn't think twice about it went and got a hot dog, came back, my last onne was blame in the breeders cup classic, I didn't see him losing, put the exactg same amount on that horse, that was the first time in us being together she tired to talk me out of a wager because I had just "lost so much money" lol, I told her babe, I got this **** lol. you just sit there and look pretty. sure enough won by a nose. She could not believe I had the stones to make a wager that big, after I had lost a wager that big, and not bad and eye. and honestly had I even lost that one, really would nt have cared. it's a nubmers game, i'm going to win some i'm going to lose some.) I know I"m going to lose some, I know i'm going to win some as well. It's just part of hte game to me. But I don't have a gambling problem because I might only make 10 wagers a week, and that's a big week for me, I don't wager that much. The bets I make are extremely calculated, they are just huge compared in porpotion to my bankroll. But in turn it allows me to really concentrate on a few races instead of trying to bet a little on a lot of races, I'd rather bet a lot on a little. I actually feel much worse if I go to the track and keep betting 20-30 dollars on every race without doing my due diligence, because I feel liek I'm wasting money if that makes any sense.
NEVER, take advice from someone, who is not in a positron you want to be in. If you want to be macking 4 women at once, don't take advice from a nerd who doesn't get laid. If you want to quit doing drugs dont' go to the crackhouse asking for advice. If you want lose weight, dont' take advice from a fat slob. If you have dreams of starting a business or you have an entrepreneurial mindset, dont' take advice, form someone who thinks risks, is stealing 2 newspapers when you only put 50 cents in the newsstand.
