These past few months have been both the most satisfying time of my life and the most emotionally confusing.
I finally realized my goal of joining a talented rock band that plays the music I grew up listening to. We had our first gig (a function) and a few more gigs, including a gig at a nearby popular bar, lined up in early October.
On the other hand, I've turned into a very, very bitter and sexually frustrated man. That changed temporarily when I went on vacation to Orlando and Virginia Beach last month and saw plenty of regular looking guys with pretty women...and talked to a number of receptive pretty women on the trip.
Since I've been home, since there isn't much to do where I live, I've went back to the whole "Go on plentyoffish and try to get a date" thing and of course frustrated at the results. I'm not ugly, in fact I'm above average looking, but it seems the women on there are looking for the same guy...the man in uniform type, and instead of just chalking it up to shallow women on a dating site (these women being 6/7s themselves anyway) I take it personally then get mad at women and think "They're just good for their looks and sex."
Sorry, for the rant...it's just disappointing that I can't fully enjoy the best time of my life because of hormones and a love/hate relationship with women.
I finally realized my goal of joining a talented rock band that plays the music I grew up listening to. We had our first gig (a function) and a few more gigs, including a gig at a nearby popular bar, lined up in early October.
On the other hand, I've turned into a very, very bitter and sexually frustrated man. That changed temporarily when I went on vacation to Orlando and Virginia Beach last month and saw plenty of regular looking guys with pretty women...and talked to a number of receptive pretty women on the trip.
Since I've been home, since there isn't much to do where I live, I've went back to the whole "Go on plentyoffish and try to get a date" thing and of course frustrated at the results. I'm not ugly, in fact I'm above average looking, but it seems the women on there are looking for the same guy...the man in uniform type, and instead of just chalking it up to shallow women on a dating site (these women being 6/7s themselves anyway) I take it personally then get mad at women and think "They're just good for their looks and sex."
Sorry, for the rant...it's just disappointing that I can't fully enjoy the best time of my life because of hormones and a love/hate relationship with women.
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