I am 23 years old and never kissed a girl.
Well, I had my oppurtinities, but screwed them up nicely.
Two years ago I learned about all the DJ stuff. It was like experiencing some kind of awakening.
Unfortunetaly at the same time some serious familiy issues occured. I became depressed and got a few health related blows like migraine. And panic attacks.
Although all of this didn't make me unattractive on the outside I almost never was in the mood to apply the things I learned here. I became a real hypochondriac and had to see a professional to learn to trust my body again. It helped me a lot.
Now I am standing here, mentally cured, but still without any experience with girls. Recently I started to improve myself in all ways. At last.
But one piece of the old panic remains. It's like a voice whispering "Why are you doing this? By now you know well enough how things beyond your control can thwart your plans. Who says that it won't happen again? Maybe just a few moments before you've finally reached your goals... And then all your efforts have been in vain."
I can't get that voice out of head.
Well, I had my oppurtinities, but screwed them up nicely.
Two years ago I learned about all the DJ stuff. It was like experiencing some kind of awakening.
Unfortunetaly at the same time some serious familiy issues occured. I became depressed and got a few health related blows like migraine. And panic attacks.
Although all of this didn't make me unattractive on the outside I almost never was in the mood to apply the things I learned here. I became a real hypochondriac and had to see a professional to learn to trust my body again. It helped me a lot.
Now I am standing here, mentally cured, but still without any experience with girls. Recently I started to improve myself in all ways. At last.
But one piece of the old panic remains. It's like a voice whispering "Why are you doing this? By now you know well enough how things beyond your control can thwart your plans. Who says that it won't happen again? Maybe just a few moments before you've finally reached your goals... And then all your efforts have been in vain."
I can't get that voice out of head.
