Time to man up, sausage. This essay reads like it is written by a feminised man. Also, learn how to use tl;dr.
-Go out, and engage with other dudes in masculine activities.
-Re-define how you view women and learn what it really means for a man to love one (rather than being infatuated).
-Re-define yourself and how you relate to others.
-Make yourself a priority; be the centre of your own existence instead of revolving round others.
-Spin plates, work out, expand your intellect.
-Repeat.