MrWood
Master Don Juan
some update.
No contact from the ex, and I am actually not expecting any. She might try, it will depend on the intent if I would even respond, or engage (I started NC after last talk on Skype). I realize at this point that I cant take her back no matter how much she would want or I want. There is too much damage from dishonesty, loyalty and basic respect that shows the lack of inherent character that this women possesses. I would be lowering my standards that I value and demand of myself and my close friends.
Had a reunion with the ex-ex last night. She is the one that I left for the ex, dumped her 2 years ago without much warning, swung a branch to the younger and hotter fake shell of ex.
She is in town for work, extending her weekend to meet up. This is our 2nd meeting since we split, the previous 5mo after our split. We had tried sex back then, but I couldnt really get into her at all since my upgrade was of substantual SMV. Had a light snack and she obviously wanted a few drinks to lube up, there was light kissing and she drops the tongue. She is still in love with me, but wants a commitment and not FWB or FB. She said we wont have sex, heh, I just said "ok". We went up to her room, I told her I am spending the night (I live a mile away from hotel). We start making out, she still says no sex, ok.. knowing she will break.. which happened. She has said she has a relationship, I find this hard to believe because she was ****ing tight every inch, orgasmd nearly before I was fully deep and had already *** once from finger.. 39yo. My first fvck in 2mo after the ex. She is here for 2 more days...
We are taking this a little like a FWB to protect ourselves but it is not easy... this is a woman I literally killed emotionally when we split, but that split had been handled properly direct with closure. I already know she can give me exactly the kind of care I am looking for until I die, and is possibly one reason I went looking for something else... just like me to my ex.
NC 30/15
No contact from the ex, and I am actually not expecting any. She might try, it will depend on the intent if I would even respond, or engage (I started NC after last talk on Skype). I realize at this point that I cant take her back no matter how much she would want or I want. There is too much damage from dishonesty, loyalty and basic respect that shows the lack of inherent character that this women possesses. I would be lowering my standards that I value and demand of myself and my close friends.
Had a reunion with the ex-ex last night. She is the one that I left for the ex, dumped her 2 years ago without much warning, swung a branch to the younger and hotter fake shell of ex.
She is in town for work, extending her weekend to meet up. This is our 2nd meeting since we split, the previous 5mo after our split. We had tried sex back then, but I couldnt really get into her at all since my upgrade was of substantual SMV. Had a light snack and she obviously wanted a few drinks to lube up, there was light kissing and she drops the tongue. She is still in love with me, but wants a commitment and not FWB or FB. She said we wont have sex, heh, I just said "ok". We went up to her room, I told her I am spending the night (I live a mile away from hotel). We start making out, she still says no sex, ok.. knowing she will break.. which happened. She has said she has a relationship, I find this hard to believe because she was ****ing tight every inch, orgasmd nearly before I was fully deep and had already *** once from finger.. 39yo. My first fvck in 2mo after the ex. She is here for 2 more days...
We are taking this a little like a FWB to protect ourselves but it is not easy... this is a woman I literally killed emotionally when we split, but that split had been handled properly direct with closure. I already know she can give me exactly the kind of care I am looking for until I die, and is possibly one reason I went looking for something else... just like me to my ex.
NC 30/15
