Master Don Juan
- Aug 30, 2020
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After 7 months you should have already forgotten about her existence. Don't do this to yourself man, don't count how many days you haven't been talking because it doesn't matter.Hello gents.
Here I am again. Crazy to think I've been doing this every month this year.
I guess my main intentions are to help others with my own introspection; this is a tough path.
NC 210 (7 Months)
Things have definitely stalled and dipped recently since my last update.
The ex has not reached out or breadcrumbed me. It has been absolute silence. I am picturing she probably has monkey branched and totally forgotten about me. It makes me a bit down to not have received anything at all; mainly making me believe like I did not matter at all. At the same time, it is also part of my awakening from my deluded romantic mind to see the truth of women.
The momentum of my work out and self-improvement has tanked significantly; I am still keeping to most of my routines as before (e.g. working out, learning, etc.) however I don't do it with as much intensity and passion as before. As a result, I've started to gain some weight, but it is still largely under control. I am just feeling a bit burnt out and also the pain that propelled me to improve has largely gone. I am fighting to maintain the same momentum of improvement now, I don't plan to give up.
I am currently suffering a horrible dry spell with women. I've recently moved somewhere that has very strict COVID measures and for the most part of the past 2 months, I was in lockdown. So I've not had any contact and interaction with girls for quite awhile now. It certainly does not help me with my NC journey because I am not able to meet others; I've had to largely face this at home and by myself. I've also been adopting more RP mentality and have avoided OLD and not invested very much into it. The result of it is I am quite lonely when it comes to women. I am looking forward for the days when I can get back out there, date and meet women. Yet I've also tried to see the positivity of it, I've tried to see this as a challenge to face breakups alone without distraction and focus on working on me. I can't deny it definitely isn't easy and has made it more challenging for me.
Maybe because of the dry spell, I recently have been thinking about the ex a bit more than usual. I guess I really long for one of those exciting and passionate relationships with a girl. I know much of my past relationship with the ex was largely me romanticizing it but it certainly felt great back then when it was happening; I've not had much luck lately because of circumstance.
Anyway, I'll check out for now.
NC is not meant for you to waste time on her wondering when she's gonna come back, it's about focusing on you and moving on to the better things.