Day 9
I approached a girl at the university today. When I saw her with her long blond hair, her tight black skirt and black boots I had no choise but to go talk to her. She was alone, I took my shot. She was looking for her class, I said hi and we began to talk. We chatted for 3-4 minutes, I was a bit sweaty but it didn't show, my hands were shaking but found her way to hide it. She gave me her phone and entered it herself in my phone, I told her I had to leave and left, she had to go to her class too. She sent choosing signals, played with her hair, asked questions .. I was a bit all over the place but I did well. I looked badass today. When I entered class, my classmates (mostly girls) looked at me like oh shot and said "bad boyyy". I think it was a solid # close. Here is the girl, sorry for the picture, it's her instagram avatar. She is my type, young, tall, long hair, skinny. She must be 20-21-22. The approach was all in Russian (my third language), I think she got wet, because even if I made mistakes, I was tight. It's just the beginning... more girls to come.
It felt good man, my vibe is coming back slowly. I was nervous but I didn't think twice, there was an opportunity, I wanted to meet that girl and thats it. I don't know if it's gonna work with her, but now I know that I can approach almost any girls and it's gonna be fine, confidence has increased. I don't know what you think of her, it doesn't really matter but for me she is a 9. I must be honest with you. I'm physically gifted, I'm tall, fit, and everything.. I'm often referred as the tall dark handsome guy. I'm not a male model but I have no problem to attract really hot girls. Dont want to brag, just want to explain that it's not noFap that gets me girls like that (noFap is good though), my look helps a lot. But I get rejected often, really often. Look only is not enough, game is important. I see some guys at school, they are surround with girls like that, and they dont brush their teeth or make an effort to look good (grooming, clothes). It blow my minds. Girls send me choosing signals all the time, it's a joke. the problem is that they are always in group, 2-3-4+. really difficult to approach (social pressure from peers), when they are alone it's a lot easier.
At the same time, I feel a bit insecure, the girl I was dating didn't answer my text yesterday, first time in a month. I know she is leaving on vacation on saturday morning + she's really busy at work, but I have the feeling that her attraction is fading away, she is gonna ghost me. Maybe not, maybe it's in my head but she usually is the one chasing and now she is more distant. I'm not gonna text her, if she texts cool, if not, next. Now I know I can meet hot girls like the one I met today. It's strange because I have an abundance mindset but at the same time I'm a bit insecure. It's going to adjust by itself as the NoFap goes on.
I feel better, definitely. I feel for approaching girl, I feel attractive. I can't wait to go buy new clothes, and see and approach hot girls at the mall this weekend. Spring is coming, snow is melting, there wont be covid here this summer. i think it's gonna be a cool summer. Plus, Im focused on my projects. There is nothing more I can do except to keep doing what I do right now. The only thing that kills my fun is the feeling that I'm getting older, I'm in my mid-thirties, when shaved and groomed I look like 26-27, some girls tell me I look like 24. Nice, but the reality is that I'm getting older and I'm not where I want to be. I have a logistic problem taht complicates things with the girls I date (no place to have sex), that's a real problem and for now there is no way to fix it really. It svcks big time. I have to find a way.
Wish my good luck, still some things to fix but overall, I'm going the right way.
That was day 9
