Once upon a time.... There lived a boy.... Okay i won't be gay ill just tell the damn story.
Well the reason for me to find this site is not based over a girl, well they added to it but it is not the entirety of it. In grade 4 I was a great soccer player, I played for my state and was always the striker on the starting 11. I would score a goal nearly every game. Aaaah how I enjoyed it, everyone loved me in primary school, they couldnt get enough of me. I was the king of my primary school, (of 300 people).
Then I found the nintendo, then shortly after the playstation, then after that i found computer games, oooh how i hated that. I have a natural addiction to video games, and i would sit there almost everyday, and play. I nearly had to repeat the 6th grade because I missed so many days of school. It was the end of the 6th grade and I was no longer the king I used to be, I was fat, short, pale, and unhealthy. I sucked at soccer, i couldnt even make the 1st division of a club team any more. All my pals were getting there first kisses while i didnt even have a girlfriend. Well i thought they were my pals, but they looked at me, not as the king, but as the verbal boxing bag. They could just tease me all they liked and I took it very bad. I would go home - cop **** from my brothers, then wonder what is wrong with me.
I made absolutely no effort to improve myself. **** just got worse. When high school came (HS goes from Grade 7-10 in australia) I was still playing video games, had bad grades, and was ugly. The girlfriend i had in primary school looked at me like i was a leper and was going out with one of the most popular people in the school, to think she had to work her ass off to get me in primary school. My friends still teased me, I made alot of new friends as well but only because of my other friends and we all hanged around in a big group. These new friends would tease me also. People used to make jokes about me to girls, the girls would laugh at me, i can remember the expressions on their faces when they would look at me. I stopped going to soccer training because i wanted to play video games, and ultimately i ended up getting kicked of the team.
Grade 9 came.
I looked at myself for the first time, I was a disaster. I was schocked on how much I had changed since primary school, and i was sick of the **** people had been spoon feeding me. Through the whole of grade 9 I just concentrated on being the man, all though this worked, it only worked a bit. I started running, was slowly loosing weight. I was starting to grow. I started going to the gym, and i was getting some muscles. I started playing soccer with some friends (not the ones from primary school) for fun down at the oval. I quickly gained their respect, save one or two. I was starting to be more out going. Some girls were showing interest just i was to retarded to pick up on it(still havent got my first kiss at this stage).
So this is the end of the story... I am improving myself... haha, i dont think so. this is when girls come into it.
*crowd ooooooh's*
Yeah, one of my friends from primary school was going out with this girl, he split up with her. So she called me nearly every day, we would talk about things, she made me feel really good. I thought she appreciated me for who i was. She started asking me questions about my friend (the one she split up with) and i was not very sure on if i should tell her. She assured me of how she is such a good friend of mine and wouldnt tell anyone. Well i told her what she wanted to know - he cheated on her, and he dumped her because she was fridget. She started crying, and i didnt know how to react. That was the last time i ever spoke to her on the phone. She got what she wanted from me then she threw me out like i was some sort of trash stuck on her shoe. When i got to school the next day, everyone knew... It was horrible, everyone asking me questions about it. I was so angry, she asked for my forgiveness and for some ****ed up reason i gave it to her.
I was devestated.
Time went on, i had stopped improving myself, I had just fallen in a hole and could not get out because of what happened. Back to the video games, back comes the weight problem, back comes the disprespect.
Another girl comes along, she seems really into me. I fall for it - of course. She was just leading me on, 2 of my friends were trying to get me to ask her out, they were being really annoying and just wouldnt let it rest. Then evventually they asked her out for me without my permission and they said she laughed at them as if it was some kind of joke. As if i was not good enough for her.
Aaaah that was it, i had had enough. So i went on this improving streak again, except this was in the 6 week holidays and i had another weapon in my arsenal.... sosuave.com. Oh how i tryed, i went to the gym sooo much, started running, started playing soccer as hard as i could. Things were getting better. 1st day back at school(grade 10) I walked up and my friends respected me now, because i was with them in the holidays and they saw I had changed(There are still 2 who want to bring me down, they dont want me to be better then them. That doesnt bother me.). My friend said the girls commented on how much i had changed and how much weight i had lost. One of the girls i was talking about before is chasing me she wants it bad. Got my first kiss at a party, i got the pick of the hottest chick there.
So thats it.. I have just started. Please take a look at my post "I'm not waiting any longer" for more info on the attitude i have now.
