I am a christian, and believe sex belongs to marriage. I have a beautiful girlfriend that I love. We're both 16. She's much more liberal than me, and about a week ago she wanted us to sleep together. She shaved her vagina and got naked for me. Now, I told her I didn't want to take her virginity,
which made her really upset, and we had a big arguement. We ended up doing just oral with each other. She told me that since I didn't want to sleep with her, she'd do it with someone else just to get it over with.
Right after we were at a party, where she got really drunk (I don't drink at all) She met with some guy in his twenties that she talked with all night, largely ignoring me. He offered to give us a ride home.
In the car, she kept telling him about how I didn't want to have sex with her because of my beliefs, and that she'd just have to get it over with. He asked her if she wanted to do it with him, and she said why not. He stopped the car in a desolate parking lot and asked if I would mind and that there would be no hard feelings etc. My girlfriend told me it would be just sex to get it over with, and that we'd still be together.
So basically he lowered the front seat for her, and undressed her lower regions. He then took out his penis, put on a condom, and tried to get inside her. He kept pushing for like 5 minutes.It really hurt her, and she was crying. Finally her hymen broke and he was inside her.She was just lying there while he slowly moved around in her vagina. I felt like my heart was gonna burst. I never thought it would come to this. After some thrusts in her he came, and pulled out the used condom that he gave to me so I could throw it away.
She was bleeding all over the front seat, and he put a shirt under her bottom.
He thanked her for the sex, and said it had been really good and that she was very tight etc. It had only hurt for her, but he wanted to do it again and told her it would feel better. After waiting a few minutes, he put on a new condom and got on top of her again. He moved back and fourth in her for like half an hour this time, and all I could hear was her moaning and his grunts of pleasure. The whole inside of the car smelled like sex. He finished with thrusting in her really hard as he came.
I then had another used condom to put away. Afterwards when she got out to pee,he kept bragging of how tight she had been and how I had missed out. He then drove me to my house, and I guess let off my girlfriend soon after. She told me nothing more happened,but that she was really sore and that her vagina had gotten badly bruised.
All I can think of is what happened that night. I'm so jealous I'm about to die, and really wish I was the one to get her virginity. She keeps telling me it was just sex since I didn't want to do it with her, and that she loves me. She still want us to sleep together, but all I can think of is him on top of her. That guy must be making fun of me now. I mean he really enjoyed it, and got to pop her cherry while I was watching. It couldn't have been more humiliating. I mean I had to put away their condoms for them. I can never get what he had, although I love my girlfriend. I just wish it never had happened. My complexes are so big right now. His **** was larger than mine too, so I'm not sure if she'll even feel anything. What should I do?? How do I get over this?
I feel like such an idiot for not using my chances.
which made her really upset, and we had a big arguement. We ended up doing just oral with each other. She told me that since I didn't want to sleep with her, she'd do it with someone else just to get it over with.
Right after we were at a party, where she got really drunk (I don't drink at all) She met with some guy in his twenties that she talked with all night, largely ignoring me. He offered to give us a ride home.
In the car, she kept telling him about how I didn't want to have sex with her because of my beliefs, and that she'd just have to get it over with. He asked her if she wanted to do it with him, and she said why not. He stopped the car in a desolate parking lot and asked if I would mind and that there would be no hard feelings etc. My girlfriend told me it would be just sex to get it over with, and that we'd still be together.
So basically he lowered the front seat for her, and undressed her lower regions. He then took out his penis, put on a condom, and tried to get inside her. He kept pushing for like 5 minutes.It really hurt her, and she was crying. Finally her hymen broke and he was inside her.She was just lying there while he slowly moved around in her vagina. I felt like my heart was gonna burst. I never thought it would come to this. After some thrusts in her he came, and pulled out the used condom that he gave to me so I could throw it away.
She was bleeding all over the front seat, and he put a shirt under her bottom.
He thanked her for the sex, and said it had been really good and that she was very tight etc. It had only hurt for her, but he wanted to do it again and told her it would feel better. After waiting a few minutes, he put on a new condom and got on top of her again. He moved back and fourth in her for like half an hour this time, and all I could hear was her moaning and his grunts of pleasure. The whole inside of the car smelled like sex. He finished with thrusting in her really hard as he came.
I then had another used condom to put away. Afterwards when she got out to pee,he kept bragging of how tight she had been and how I had missed out. He then drove me to my house, and I guess let off my girlfriend soon after. She told me nothing more happened,but that she was really sore and that her vagina had gotten badly bruised.
All I can think of is what happened that night. I'm so jealous I'm about to die, and really wish I was the one to get her virginity. She keeps telling me it was just sex since I didn't want to do it with her, and that she loves me. She still want us to sleep together, but all I can think of is him on top of her. That guy must be making fun of me now. I mean he really enjoyed it, and got to pop her cherry while I was watching. It couldn't have been more humiliating. I mean I had to put away their condoms for them. I can never get what he had, although I love my girlfriend. I just wish it never had happened. My complexes are so big right now. His **** was larger than mine too, so I'm not sure if she'll even feel anything. What should I do?? How do I get over this?
I feel like such an idiot for not using my chances.
