Just too attached at this point i think... I dont exactly understand why am i still willing to go through it... I m pretty sure it will end soon as it's taking its toll on both of us and it's not like the dynamic will suddenly change. It sucks though because i still feel like i m failing her in a way. But at some point i cant keep doing this and live in a world of uncertainty (where she seems to thrive). I have done this before, but this "relationship" feels different from the other ones. Anywho i guess we ll see what happens next.. Stay tuned.. lolYou sound relatively calm for being 6 months into it. Maybe you're able to not let it effect you that badly.
I personally have been totally devastated with both of my cluster b experiences in the aftermath. But I just cannot believe I got sucked in again. They are sooooo good at lowering your defenses even when the red flags are glaring at you in the face.
I guess as long as you're not suicidal or drinking/doing drugs to cope, things are OK. but if she admitted to being BPD why continue to take a chance with her? Especially, after you've been through it before?