6 year anniversary after visiting escort. How does this feel today.

[corrector]

Today is Dec 5th. 6 years ago I visited an escort from Brazil whose name was Bianca and got a catastrophic panic attack (caused by 'moral shock') the following morning, but I'm feeling great today! Best thing about having an ex-escort is you don't have to worry about reconnecting, if she'd want you back, or go over any memories like a real ex-gf, because she was gone as soon as the session was over.

However, in terms of memory, the escort I saw the day before, named Suzy, from Columbia is more dominant. Just think we may have had better chemistry and she had a thick body and I still remember dancing with her naked and groping her gigantic....

There is one thing I do know, this is going to be an amazing month because I won't be having any catastrophic panic attack tomorrow. That's one anniversary that I feel great about. Also unlike other women, if I want to meet another one, it's just a phone call, drive and some cash away, and can wear an n95 mask and gloves and that would be perfectly fine. However, thanks to that panic attack, I'm changed and will never go back there again.

 

[MatureDJ]

I don't have a problem with EscortMaxxing.

 

[CAPSLOCK BANDIT]

You are sending the wrong message with gloves and mask, I understand safety but at a date, it becomes intrusive and almost disrespectful very quickly.

Just saying, gotta think about the optics, if your that worried, don't go

 

[corrector]

You are sending the wrong message with gloves and mask, I understand safety but at a date, it becomes intrusive and almost disrespectful very quickly.

Just saying, gotta think about the optics, if your that worried, don't go

You may have missed the first post. An anniversary means I stopped this 6 years ago or it wouldn't be an anniversary (unless it's that particular escort) that I repented. Nevertheless, you've raised some thoughtful points, may I proceed for argument sake:

Some escorts require their clients to take a shower before servicing them in the covid era. Its in their ads. Some escorts require their clients to wear a surgical mask or they won't service them. Lots of others have gone to offer online services / covid discounts as well. So, if they are protecting themselves like that, and it's a business arrangement, then why would something become intrusive or disrespectful in a business transaction? I'd be more worried about white-maxxing on some of these escorts rather than worrying about masks or gloves as you are saying here.

Either way, I have repented of that sin, it was an illicit lustful relationship where the act of paying $ 60.00 was consummated, the feeling of taking those three twenty dollar bills and communicating something primal that could not be spoken in words that could only understood by me and her and giving her that money, and the panic attacks followed to ensure this would stay as history.

 

[CAPSLOCK BANDIT]

You may have missed the first post. An anniversary means I stopped this 6 years ago or it wouldn't be an anniversary (unless it's that particular escort) that I repented. Nevertheless, you've raised some thoughtful points, may I proceed for argument sake:

Some escorts require their clients to take a shower before servicing them in the covid era. Its in their ads. Some escorts require their clients to wear a surgical mask or they won't service them. Lots of others have gone to offer online services / covid discounts as well. So, if they are protecting themselves like that, and it's a business arrangement, then why would something become intrusive or disrespectful in a business transaction? I'd be more worried about white-maxxing on some of these escorts rather than worrying about masks or gloves as you are saying here.

Either way, I have repented of that sin, it was an illicit lustful relationship where the act of paying $ 60.00 was consummated, the feeling of taking those three twenty dollar bills and communicating something primal that could not be spoken in words that could only understood by me and her and giving her that money, and the panic attacks followed to ensure this would stay as history.

I thought I read you were going on a date, I wasn't speaking on the escort thing, I've never done it so I don't have an opinion on it outside of watch for super aids

 

[Romanemp22]

I don't know what you mean by moral attack. Whenever I was with an escort I never had any problem. My friend have couple of girls, I've slept with two of those, one in June and one was last year. I still see them from time to time in town and nothing is awkward.

 

[corrector]

I thought I read you were going on a date, I wasn't speaking on the escort thing, I've never done it so I don't have an opinion on it outside of watch for super aids

What? You did not read the title of this thread or the first sentence of my post? Since I'm so girl-hungry, just playing with her hair or hugging up an escort because she's a woman hits the spot (I saw both pvssys so I know 100% they were both women). I never had penetrative vaginal sex with an escort to date, but was hyper-aroused dealing with them in the past.

 

[corrector]

I don't know what you mean by moral attack. Whenever I was with an escort I never had any problem. My friend have couple of girls, I've slept with two of those, one in June and one was last year. I still see them from time to time in town and nothing is awkward.

To explain this without crossing this into a religious discussion I will only relate to matters of health. The morning AFTER visiting the last escort there was a catastrophic panic attack which shut me down for a solid month. The symptoms for the first week was the inability to eat solid food, sleep, and having a feeling like I was a sea lion tossed in the air by a whale in the middle of the ocean and the feeling of dread of not knowing what was going to happen next. I was advised to visit the Emergency of the hospital when I talked to a telephone nurse about it. As you can imagine, I could not visit a hospital or see a doctor and admit that I visited an escort and lost my mind afterwards, how humiliating that would sound, and suffered in silence until the symptoms eventually went away.

During this time, unable to watch any movies, unable to fap, unable to watch music videos with female vocalists on them, because my soul would feel like it's zapping out of my body if I did that. Unable to eat anything except for soups or maybe oat-meal. If I went for a walk around the house, I had to bring a smartphone because I wasn't sure I'd make it back home. It took a week before I was able to eat a hamburger. Unable to comfortably drive near the place where the incall location was without feeling like I could get zapped.

It is clear that visiting a prostitute is generally frowned upon by all religions that are out there so it's not a stretch to suggest there are moral issues across the board about this. However, this is not a direction I wish to place a discussion and defaulting to physical symptoms, and whether I can afford something like that happening again that even sounds like that, should prove to be a sufficient mental barrier to ever going there again.

Again, any symptoms or issues happening the following morning. There was no issues about the session itself. It felt like an invasion happened the next morning.

 

[bat soup]

To explain this without crossing this into a religious discussion I will only relate to matters of health. The morning AFTER visiting the last escort there was a catastrophic panic attack which shut me down for a solid month. The symptoms for the first week was the inability to eat solid food, sleep, and having a feeling like I was a sea lion tossed in the air by a whale in the middle of the ocean and the feeling of dread of not knowing what was going to happen next. I was advised to visit the Emergency of the hospital when I talked to a telephone nurse about it. As you can imagine, I could not visit a hospital or see a doctor and admit that I visited an escort and lost my mind afterwards, how humiliating that would sound, and suffered in silence until the symptoms eventually went away.

During this time, unable to watch any movies, unable to fap, unable to watch music videos with female vocalists on them, because my soul would feel like it's zapping out of my body if I did that. Unable to eat anything except for soups or maybe oat-meal. If I went for a walk around the house, I had to bring a smartphone because I wasn't sure I'd make it back home. It took a week before I was able to eat a hamburger. Unable to comfortably drive near the place where the incall location was without feeling like I could get zapped.

It is clear that visiting a prostitute is generally frowned upon by all religions that are out there so it's not a stretch to suggest there are moral issues across the board about this. However, this is not a direction I wish to place a discussion and defaulting to physical symptoms, and whether I can afford something like that happening again that even sounds like that, should prove to be a sufficient mental barrier to ever going there again.

Again, any symptoms or issues happening the following morning. There was no issues about the session itself. It felt like an invasion happened the next morning.

I find this a bit hard to understand. For me, dealing with an escort is purely business. You shouldn't be getting so emotional about it.

 

[Romanemp22]

To explain this without crossing this into a religious discussion I will only relate to matters of health. The morning AFTER visiting the last escort there was a catastrophic panic attack which shut me down for a solid month. The symptoms for the first week was the inability to eat solid food, sleep, and having a feeling like I was a sea lion tossed in the air by a whale in the middle of the ocean and the feeling of dread of not knowing what was going to happen next. I was advised to visit the Emergency of the hospital when I talked to a telephone nurse about it. As you can imagine, I could not visit a hospital or see a doctor and admit that I visited an escort and lost my mind afterwards, how humiliating that would sound, and suffered in silence until the symptoms eventually went away.

During this time, unable to watch any movies, unable to fap, unable to watch music videos with female vocalists on them, because my soul would feel like it's zapping out of my body if I did that. Unable to eat anything except for soups or maybe oat-meal. If I went for a walk around the house, I had to bring a smartphone because I wasn't sure I'd make it back home. It took a week before I was able to eat a hamburger. Unable to comfortably drive near the place where the incall location was without feeling like I could get zapped.

It is clear that visiting a prostitute is generally frowned upon by all religions that are out there so it's not a stretch to suggest there are moral issues across the board about this. However, this is not a direction I wish to place a discussion and defaulting to physical symptoms, and whether I can afford something like that happening again that even sounds like that, should prove to be a sufficient mental barrier to ever going there again.

Again, any symptoms or issues happening the following morning. There was no issues about the session itself. It felt like an invasion happened the next morning.

I'm not judging you or anything, I'm just curious as I never heard about it before. Did you experience a lot of intrusive thoughts after that and feelings of guilt or shame?

 

[EyeBRollin]

I don’t understand OP. It’s an escort. You pay her money, she lets you do almost anything you want with her. I don’t see where all this other stuff comes from?

 

[corrector]

I'm not judging you or anything, I'm just curious as I never heard about it before. Did you experience a lot of intrusive thoughts after that and feelings of guilt or shame?

Yes.

 

[corrector]

I don’t understand OP. It’s an escort. You pay her money, she lets you do almost anything you want with her. I don’t see where all this other stuff comes from?

Neither do I. However, it happened to me, and there is nothing I've said that has exaggerated the experience. I have done an extensive research of anti-anxiety medications and anti-depressants through that ordeal. A hotel was rented for about a week because I couldn't bare these symptoms at home and had to be somewhere else where there was more space. I have never tried any of these meds and, especially if I don't visit a prostitute again, probably won't have to. A part of my soul felt it was lost to a strange woman.

There is also the other aspect that you have "power" over another woman you don't know if you can do that over money. That could mess up your mind in and of itself. Make you feel like a pagan or heathen.

 

[corrector]

I find this a bit hard to understand. For me, dealing with an escort is purely business. You shouldn't be getting so emotional about it.

The principle may be business, but the woman is still a woman, who could be possessed and have allot of demons that could come an attack me afterwards. If she was molested by an adult when she was a child or something like that, then that feeling of being molested could come and haunt me afterwards via transference of spirits.

The only safe way of dealing with an escort, without exposure to her demons/spirits/soul-tie is to fap at her ad pictures. There has to be literally no contact.

 

[bat soup]

The principle may be business, but the woman is still a woman, who could be possessed and have allot of demons that could come an attack me afterwards. If she was molested by an adult when she was a child or something like that, then that feeling of being molested could come and haunt me afterwards via transference of spirits.

The only safe way of dealing with an escort, without exposure to her demons/spirits/soul-tie is to fap at her ad pictures. There has to be literally no contact.

Oh I see. It seems like you're the expert at that. Gotta watch out for those pesky demons!

 

[corrector]

Oh I see. It seems like you're the expert at that. Gotta watch out for those pesky demons!

I didn't say I was an expert....but this guy is:

 

[bat soup]

I didn't say I was an expert....but this guy is:

I think that's probably what happened to Roosh.

 

[Romanemp22]

I think the best part of fvcking a possessed girl are those crazy hip movements when she's riding you but the truth is you don't know who's doing it

 

[bat soup]

I think the best part of fvcking a possessed girl are those crazy hip movements when she's riding you but the truth is you don't know who's doing it

Yeah, actually the more demons they have in their head the better. Just don't let them find out where you live.

 

[corrector]

Yeah, actually the more demons they have in their head the better. Just don't let them find out where you live.

With me they probably thought "who is this Christian spying on our territory" and ganged up on me the following morning. They jumped me because I played around with their girl and I am opposed to them and their kingdom. They can latch on to people and tag you as you leave. These are invisible spirits so they can know where you live.

Others who are not Christians will be ignored by them since they are already in darkness and are not teasing their domain. I invaded their space and they in turn imvaded mine. So I dont play with their women again.