Hey guys, i've decided to do another journal again. I stopped my bootcamp, as I believe that there's no need for it. Here we go. I've been rusty as of lately. Saturday(at a different chapter of my fraternity): #1 Was at a party house in one of the unis at DC, i was pretty drunk. I had mad approach anxiety. Saw a dark brunette from the corner of my eye. Was pretty scared to approach as I wasn't sure if i could hold a conversation, since i was a bit nervous. About 6 people were talking with her and a blonde haired dude. I was drinking more and more alcohol to loosen me up(I probably would've eventually approached her sober...but i wouldn't have had as much fun) after 15, a couple of people leave the group and I go up to her saying "hi" touching her arm...as i didn't get eye contact before hand, since they were talking amongst themselves. Approach the girls saying hi and stuff. I tell her i'm in the frat holding the house...and about how much she parties. She's open and tells me about how she goes to American University instead of GWU. The interaction could've gone well, if i truly wanted to find more about her instead of just having "fvcking her" on my mind only. Did see a lone girl near the beer pong table, i got AA as i thought that i wouldn't be able to hold a conversation...i couldn't see her face and thought she was amazingly hot but in reality...she was good looking but not super hot. A guy goes up to he....missed an opportunity but thats ok. For quite a bit of the night, i went up to girls to have them dance but quite a few didn't want to. One girl saw me, i pull out my hand doing the "Come here" motion but she shakes her head. I wait a couple of minutes, and see an asian chick dancing, she was a 7...and had a very nice rack. While grinding with her....my chest touched her breasts when we were face to face...when i turn her...i try to turn her face to kiss her but she didn't and i couldn't hear her...the music was too loud. Her friend tries to take her a way a couple of times, but i tell her friend "I got her for a few more minutes" and then continue dancing. FIRST TIME I DID THAT Afterwards, do some more grinding and the basement starts to get packed. I say I approached about atleast 10 chicks the entire night, a few were in groups. Funny thing is that about 1/2 seemed like they wanted to talk more, its just that i ran out of things to say after we introduce each other, asking which schools we go, what they do for fun, etc. I did do some ****y and funny like, "I bet since u party alot...i take it u were a dork ;-) and still are" One of them said "Am not" I forget some of the convos One girl i actually out right jokingly said to her, "Don't be a pvssy...say fvcking *******...say fvcking *******...no need to say fvcking A" haha. How she responded? She got a bit offended by it, but she took it well from what i fully remember. I ejected after that.lol. Its funny, since this was a different chapter frat house, i'm more nervous gaming at my own frat parties than i am, at a random party. Must be that i subconsciously am self conscious about my game being seen by my frat bros and that they'll do better than I will(Since some tend to do better interacting with girls) #2 The 2nd to last girl was a blonde, who i give a 7. She had a cute face, and a lean body(Gymnist). I approached her, but at first i thought she was disinterested so im about to eject after i approached her with "hi". But she just was out of it for a second looking down looking for something in reality. It was just my belief when i was drunk. i tell her im fine and i ask her about why she's passionate about gymnastics and how hardcore the training is. We get into it for about 2 minutes, and then we grind. She says she can ;-) I just take her to the dance area, and we grind for a bit and it feels great. I kiss her afew times and try to isolate her...but i think ASD was in her mind since her friend was still around(Tried to get her to a room, i know its what she wanted) She was on the tipsy side too. A couple of times, she did say, "Lead the way" when i took her to a corner to kiss her and talk. Other times, she tells me, "Want to go with me to get a beer?" and other things. Pretty high interest. I tell her i'll be right back when i take a piss but i learn she left with her friend(her friend was pretty good looking too). Funny thing is that when she went to the bathroom, i talked with two more of these chicks who were pretty attractive looking but i ejected as i thought the blonde was a guarantee lay at the time. #3 Afterwards, i make out with an alright blonde chick...who was actually flirting tons while we were kissing. Her: "I know you want me " Me: "Yea...but u want me more " Kept touching and holding her face, while kissing her. I forget her name, and she loses interest after she says, I bet you don't know my name.HAHA . After that, i see her leave with her friends when i had to go piss again. At that moment, i was hella frustrated as i couldn't even get laid that night....i came so close...it was like a carrot on the stick. I then see two girls outside, one is on one of my fellow brother's lap and the other is sitting down...i pseudo talk to her(i forget about what we did) she was a brunette(Couldn't quite talk much). Then i see a blonde haired guy talk to her and she seems more interested in talking to him than me in my eyes...and then i just can't take anymore and walk off hella pissed due to all this frustration of the game and that im getting worse. I walk for about 20 minutes to an open area, and yell and just say **** about the game. I see a cop approach me for the commotion i cause yelling out at night and he thought it was funny, as he knew it was all cuz of the game. I thought it was funny too, getting riled up over something thats as small as say holding a quarter. Good analogy. But i felt alot better afterwards, and i did well that night as this was the closest of almost getting some in a while, and i wasn't THAT drunk...and i did in fact approach and have conversation despite being nervous. All in all, not bad What i learned: 1) I once didn't want to use alcohol as players with game don't need it, but since i was at a party with alcohol...i mine as well.. 2) I still haven't yet given up...yet i still have lots to go 3) Quite a few of the girls wanted to talk to me more, yet i ejected a few times later realizing. 4) Only one girl actually acted disinterested but i still kept on talking to her for a minute 5) Despite gaming, i learned that taking things personally will be a best i'm overcoming 6) Many of these girls really do want to get ffked...they just want to be emotionally free about it I didn't go much into specifics, but thats all i remember.