Right now I'm at that in point in my life. The point in my life where I can make one of two very important decisions that will affect me for the rest of my life. Bodybuilding is there, but isn't being utilized...in fact I don't know if I wanna start working out right now. It's been almost a month since I truly had a week where I worked out, and for me that is unusual since I love bodybuilding and working out.
The last month or two have been difficult, dropping out of High School and not quite sure if I should just finish my diploma (18yrs old/16 credits) and start studying business possibly own my own or get into finances and apply for University as a mature student after I have a couple business certificates to my name. Or finish HS continue not having any money (Did I mention I'm broke?) and just get my degree? I know the next time I write something in my blog it will be of a positive note and I will add anicdotes for those who can read my blog and take something from it. As I look at it now, I hate High School; always will.
I've never learned anything from it, never gained anything from being there and always felt like those who were successful in High School were tools. Yes Sir Types. And those who are willing to swallow their own pride and personal sanity for the acheivement (or so it is called) of High Grades. The swallowing and reguritating of useless information is how I pereceive the High School education system to be. I personally can vouch that all my PERSONAL successes and things that have made me happy through life, or things that I have learned through life are all based on my own criteria and based on what I've done to make things happen.
When I wanted to learn something, to try something, to do something I went out of my way to make that a priority in my life and become best at it. Whether it be Bodybuilding, Women, Philosophy, Self-Improvement and currently right now ways to make money.
When I wanted to improve my ways with certain things I went out and did it. I know I'm capable, thats not the issue. Its the where to right now. Where and what direction should I take myself?
I honestly don't know and it is leading me to a deep hole of concern for myself. I'm not neccsarily seeing myself as a victim , I know my position right now is a result of my own actions. But when I see the heavy burden of getting a Diploma, or at least the essentiality of it. I know everyone needs one, or do you? This is a question I need answering. I like to be the one there for people when they need sage advice and counselling, but when the advisor dosen't know who to go to, who does he turn to? Himself? If that is the case then the advisor (myself) is split in two dividing factions. One that sees getting a Diploma as a neccessity and another that sees the need for money as a neccessity.
The last month or two have been difficult, dropping out of High School and not quite sure if I should just finish my diploma (18yrs old/16 credits) and start studying business possibly own my own or get into finances and apply for University as a mature student after I have a couple business certificates to my name. Or finish HS continue not having any money (Did I mention I'm broke?) and just get my degree? I know the next time I write something in my blog it will be of a positive note and I will add anicdotes for those who can read my blog and take something from it. As I look at it now, I hate High School; always will.
I've never learned anything from it, never gained anything from being there and always felt like those who were successful in High School were tools. Yes Sir Types. And those who are willing to swallow their own pride and personal sanity for the acheivement (or so it is called) of High Grades. The swallowing and reguritating of useless information is how I pereceive the High School education system to be. I personally can vouch that all my PERSONAL successes and things that have made me happy through life, or things that I have learned through life are all based on my own criteria and based on what I've done to make things happen.
When I wanted to learn something, to try something, to do something I went out of my way to make that a priority in my life and become best at it. Whether it be Bodybuilding, Women, Philosophy, Self-Improvement and currently right now ways to make money.
When I wanted to improve my ways with certain things I went out and did it. I know I'm capable, thats not the issue. Its the where to right now. Where and what direction should I take myself?
I honestly don't know and it is leading me to a deep hole of concern for myself. I'm not neccsarily seeing myself as a victim , I know my position right now is a result of my own actions. But when I see the heavy burden of getting a Diploma, or at least the essentiality of it. I know everyone needs one, or do you? This is a question I need answering. I like to be the one there for people when they need sage advice and counselling, but when the advisor dosen't know who to go to, who does he turn to? Himself? If that is the case then the advisor (myself) is split in two dividing factions. One that sees getting a Diploma as a neccessity and another that sees the need for money as a neccessity.
