@RestUnknown
@samspade
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There is a big misconception when people throw around the phrase, "rock bottom." All I can say about it is that unless you are truly addicted to something mind and behavior altering, you have no comprehension of what it means. It can be, like you posit, for movies and tv or some miraculous epiphany. And I suppose it's exactly this for some. Some drinkers will wind up on skid row with nothing but a bottle of t-bird and a paper bag. some will lose everything.
When it comes right down to it, rock bottom is the point when you can no longer keep digging. Now, this can mean different things for different people. Some may hit it after they lose it all and wind up sleeping on the garbage cans. some will hit it after their first ever hangover. It's as individual and varied as there are people. A normal, social drinker has no conception of this idea because they can have one drink or a few or however many and they can simply walk away from it for months, maybe years and feel no desire for it, feel no change in their mood without it. A drunk will desire the feeling that alcohol provides and realize there is something "missing" in his life without it-----despite whatever guilt, shame remorse he may feel from drinking. You may say that if you want to stop, then just stop. Of course, but for a drunk (no offense to anyone) it's not that easy. And I can't really explain it to you unless you feel that booze is a problem for you yet you keep picking up.
For me, I really did some crazy sh!t when I was drunk. Things I simply could not believe I did. I'd even have black outs where I'd wake up driving a car or I'd be sitting in some stranger's living room. Yet, I kept drinking. I hated myself for it and I wanted to stop but I kept picking up. One day I couldn't keep my balance, no coordination. I went to see a doctor. I remember my appointment was at like 8AM . Early in the morning, anyway. I remember her asking me how much I drank and if I had drank that morning. Now, I hadn't, but I must've stank like a distillery from the night before. At that moment, I realized that this was no longer working. Not all the blackouts arguments, fights, getting thrown out of houses, bars, apartments, etc, etc, etc. You name it, I probably did it. It took a doctor asking me if I had drank in the morning to make me sick and tired of being sick and tired. Did I stop then. No. Soon after I was diagnosed with MS. I still didn't stop, but I weaned myself off of it. One does not just stop drinking after being drunk round the clock for years. But I had MS. There were now going to be a lot of things I couldn't do. And I thought about all those years I was drunk, wasting time. BUT, at least I was sober now. and that was everything. In a way, getting MS saved y life. cuz I was headed nowhere good if I kept drinking, no doubt about it.
anyway, only YOU know if you have a problem. It's not as easy as stopping and walking away for some of us. If you want to stop, but you're afraid of hitting rock bottom on account of losing everything keep this in mind. Once you hit the bottom, there's nowhere to go but up. sounds corny, but it worked for me. My life is exceptionally better since I quit. The worst times sober are a thousand time better than the best times drunk.
