Merciless Dj
Don Juan
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I have been on my way for self-improvement for a few months since Oneitis hit for the first time, and hopefully last time (although I haven´t totally recovered yet). I have seen a lot of improvement but today, reading again the 48 laws of power, I realized which thing is the one I struggle the most with: I don´t conceal my intentions.
For the last 3 months my friends have been perceiving a change in me, but I always end up ruining it, not in a threatening way, I just end up telling all my close friends all my thoughts about all the things about game and self-improvement and game, that I constantly think about (probably I´m too serious about it). Although male friends value me for being like an open book, I just feel like I could achieve way more by keeping the intrigue and mystery around myself, appearing even more special to their eyes.
The worst thing about this is that I spend a lot of time around a circle of female friends in which my ex is (she´s a fatherless daughter which holds some deep resentment inside, she used to go from idealizing me to staying totally away from me), and I have told them about my new thoughts about how females work and game, and they see me as a beta tryhard since they knew my old blue pill self (I should be leaving them and getting new social circles). Girls are definitely the ones who need people to play to their fantasies and feelings the most.
I know all the stuff I have discovered it´s true as I feel self-improvement, people who know me after taking the red pill perceive me in a different way, more alpha, and I even had some time to test in on my ex before going back into Oneitis about 3 and a half months ago, when she finally stopped talking to me.
The next year I´m starting college, and aside from getting in a lot of new social circles (I have been changing from class or school for different reasons for the past 5 years since I ended primary school), this time I need to conceal my thoughts and keep them to myself: Any help to achieve this? Every time I´m relaxed around my friends I just seem to give away any resistance to share my thoughts with someone.
Thanks.
(I´m probably writing all my bs here because I need to tell someone about this as well)
For the last 3 months my friends have been perceiving a change in me, but I always end up ruining it, not in a threatening way, I just end up telling all my close friends all my thoughts about all the things about game and self-improvement and game, that I constantly think about (probably I´m too serious about it). Although male friends value me for being like an open book, I just feel like I could achieve way more by keeping the intrigue and mystery around myself, appearing even more special to their eyes.
The worst thing about this is that I spend a lot of time around a circle of female friends in which my ex is (she´s a fatherless daughter which holds some deep resentment inside, she used to go from idealizing me to staying totally away from me), and I have told them about my new thoughts about how females work and game, and they see me as a beta tryhard since they knew my old blue pill self (I should be leaving them and getting new social circles). Girls are definitely the ones who need people to play to their fantasies and feelings the most.
I know all the stuff I have discovered it´s true as I feel self-improvement, people who know me after taking the red pill perceive me in a different way, more alpha, and I even had some time to test in on my ex before going back into Oneitis about 3 and a half months ago, when she finally stopped talking to me.
The next year I´m starting college, and aside from getting in a lot of new social circles (I have been changing from class or school for different reasons for the past 5 years since I ended primary school), this time I need to conceal my thoughts and keep them to myself: Any help to achieve this? Every time I´m relaxed around my friends I just seem to give away any resistance to share my thoughts with someone.
Thanks.
(I´m probably writing all my bs here because I need to tell someone about this as well)