Hi guys,
I'm starting to feel bad for myself. And I hate it but seriously can't stop. Long story short:had a gf, broke up, ultra happy with that, started talking to a older girl, she stopped talking to me, normal happy no feelling bad, start liking a taller girl, kinda start once again feelling bad for myself for being short (1.70m), still not feeling totally bad, yet I simply couldn't talk to her, I tried she was nice and all but I couldn't say anything decent to her. Holidays, decided to start fresh new year, last day of first week of school, see older girl and her friends, a guy of her class calls me, start talking to him, say Hi to her, she greets me with a kiss, kinda run away because I'm trying to avoid her, then I when I get out of school see taller girl talking to a guy I know (the player kind, not even that good looking, but confident and can make her laugh) was thinking about saying bye to her, then she see's me and says Good Weekend and I go away feelling bad for myself. I go home, feelling really bad, trying to stop thinking about it, older girl starts talking to me on fb, I answer, she's making an effort to keep conversation I get happy with that, flirt a bit with her (not sure how cuz I'm not used to it) we stop at 1AM cuz she had to go to sleep (me too) and she ends calling me "sweet" and asking me to say something to her next day, was talking to some other friends at the time and they say I should take a chance because she seems interested. Don't talk to her in saturday only in sunday night, say hi smurf (joke with something from last time) she doesn't answer.. feelling really bad after that, after talking to a friend of mine that knows her, he says she isnt ignoring me not her type, she just didnt see it so I should say something again, I ask how r things going she answers, taking centuries to respond when I try to make chitchat, say I have to go, feelling bad but better. Today saw her once, went to say hi to her and some of her friends, then went away.
Now here I am totally confused about her, I know I like this older girl, I can't stop thinking about her, but seriously think I have no chance. Feelling bad for myself and I freaking hate it, really can't stand being so short, I try my best, I am athletic and all but I just can't stop feelling sh*tty for it even knowing I can't change it goddamn it. I know lots of people, I have good grades (18/20 kinda grades), I am not wonderfull but I am not horrible either, blonde, green eyed, girls said to me that I had a strong jaw and have a deep voice (too deep for me, I hate it almost no one can hear me -.-), atheletic naturally trying to get time to work out but I have more muscle than anyone at my class anyway (guess that's the one thing in my advantage). How can I get more confident, stop feelling bad for myself and start ignoring this kinda thing with girls ? There's times I can simply not give a damn about anyone, that's how I was before, but then suddenly I start thinking about my height and then I simply break down and feel like complete awfulness. I try to keep that appearence but I don't feel like it. How can I start being that ? I want to man up.
Sorry for the wall of text. But seriously could use some help in this.
Greetings !
I'm starting to feel bad for myself. And I hate it but seriously can't stop. Long story short:had a gf, broke up, ultra happy with that, started talking to a older girl, she stopped talking to me, normal happy no feelling bad, start liking a taller girl, kinda start once again feelling bad for myself for being short (1.70m), still not feeling totally bad, yet I simply couldn't talk to her, I tried she was nice and all but I couldn't say anything decent to her. Holidays, decided to start fresh new year, last day of first week of school, see older girl and her friends, a guy of her class calls me, start talking to him, say Hi to her, she greets me with a kiss, kinda run away because I'm trying to avoid her, then I when I get out of school see taller girl talking to a guy I know (the player kind, not even that good looking, but confident and can make her laugh) was thinking about saying bye to her, then she see's me and says Good Weekend and I go away feelling bad for myself. I go home, feelling really bad, trying to stop thinking about it, older girl starts talking to me on fb, I answer, she's making an effort to keep conversation I get happy with that, flirt a bit with her (not sure how cuz I'm not used to it) we stop at 1AM cuz she had to go to sleep (me too) and she ends calling me "sweet" and asking me to say something to her next day, was talking to some other friends at the time and they say I should take a chance because she seems interested. Don't talk to her in saturday only in sunday night, say hi smurf (joke with something from last time) she doesn't answer.. feelling really bad after that, after talking to a friend of mine that knows her, he says she isnt ignoring me not her type, she just didnt see it so I should say something again, I ask how r things going she answers, taking centuries to respond when I try to make chitchat, say I have to go, feelling bad but better. Today saw her once, went to say hi to her and some of her friends, then went away.
Now here I am totally confused about her, I know I like this older girl, I can't stop thinking about her, but seriously think I have no chance. Feelling bad for myself and I freaking hate it, really can't stand being so short, I try my best, I am athletic and all but I just can't stop feelling sh*tty for it even knowing I can't change it goddamn it. I know lots of people, I have good grades (18/20 kinda grades), I am not wonderfull but I am not horrible either, blonde, green eyed, girls said to me that I had a strong jaw and have a deep voice (too deep for me, I hate it almost no one can hear me -.-), atheletic naturally trying to get time to work out but I have more muscle than anyone at my class anyway (guess that's the one thing in my advantage). How can I get more confident, stop feelling bad for myself and start ignoring this kinda thing with girls ? There's times I can simply not give a damn about anyone, that's how I was before, but then suddenly I start thinking about my height and then I simply break down and feel like complete awfulness. I try to keep that appearence but I don't feel like it. How can I start being that ? I want to man up.
Sorry for the wall of text. But seriously could use some help in this.
Greetings !