VikingKing
Banned
Some times I drink so much its almost sickening. For the last 4 days ive been putting down a 750 ml of cheap vodkah a day. This is something ive been struggling with especially after the military.
I've been slacking a lot at school. But I'm pretty sure I can get everything done by may, thats when its due.
I'm not very social. I don't try to make friends at all.
Its really just been a struggle the last couple of years, and I really need to pull myself together. I know once I can maintain sobriety for 90 days every thing in life will be easier to deal with.
Sh!t kills.
One thing thats kinda fvcked up is i get sober for a week to more, then go back to it. Two weeks ago I ran 6 miles in 52 mins, two days later I ran 3, two days later I ran 5. It's amazing how far I can push my body.
Then I take a break from the gym and go back to drinking, its insanity.
Regardless of what happens now, as long as i can just keep on keeping on regardless of my situation, which Ive learned to do very well now. Just forcing yourself to do things you have zero motivation.
I finally got hired so I will be busy working, so I wont have time to drink. I think I will just start to run after work. But having a job really makes me feel a lot more secure.
I talked to my brother about this. he says I need to stop feeling bad for myself and let go of whatever is bothering me. I told him about my job, and he told me I should continue to look for a better paying job.
Alcohol is just holding me back from everything I want to get out of life. Sh!ts rough.
Today I'm going to lower it to a pint and just drink it slowly, if I dont I'm going to have insomnia combined with extreme cold sweats. I have learned to ween myself off of it untill im fine with out drinking, but I go right back to it.
I've been slacking a lot at school. But I'm pretty sure I can get everything done by may, thats when its due.
I'm not very social. I don't try to make friends at all.
Its really just been a struggle the last couple of years, and I really need to pull myself together. I know once I can maintain sobriety for 90 days every thing in life will be easier to deal with.
Sh!t kills.
One thing thats kinda fvcked up is i get sober for a week to more, then go back to it. Two weeks ago I ran 6 miles in 52 mins, two days later I ran 3, two days later I ran 5. It's amazing how far I can push my body.
Then I take a break from the gym and go back to drinking, its insanity.
Regardless of what happens now, as long as i can just keep on keeping on regardless of my situation, which Ive learned to do very well now. Just forcing yourself to do things you have zero motivation.
I finally got hired so I will be busy working, so I wont have time to drink. I think I will just start to run after work. But having a job really makes me feel a lot more secure.
I talked to my brother about this. he says I need to stop feeling bad for myself and let go of whatever is bothering me. I told him about my job, and he told me I should continue to look for a better paying job.
Alcohol is just holding me back from everything I want to get out of life. Sh!ts rough.
Today I'm going to lower it to a pint and just drink it slowly, if I dont I'm going to have insomnia combined with extreme cold sweats. I have learned to ween myself off of it untill im fine with out drinking, but I go right back to it.