Recent content by Gaysha

Yesterday was day 58 and I broke no contact. I'm not proud nor do I think it was a mistake. I wanted to send her a message so I did. You can judge me if you want, I know what I feel in my heart and that is only love. Yes - she ****ed me over, yes - she broke up with me, yes - I cried like a baby...

Day 50. I will be completely honest. I stopped thinking about her for the last 2 weeks, felt great (still do). But last night I suddenly started thinking about her, how it's so sad we used to tell each other everything and now we're complete strangers. It's been 7 weeks since last message, 11...

Yes, I wanted to say don't do it DESPERATELY because other people will feel you are clingy and in so much need of love and appreciation. I don't mean to just wait someone to come, be active but don't give it too much meaning. You know how I met the girl I'm currently dating? I came back to a gay...

Day 47. I have been super busy resting for the past few days. I went to have a vacation on an island with my friend, I enjoyed it very much. Now I'm back home and starting to study for my exam which is in September. I am still dating that girl, still going slow, enjoying... I think I've learned...

Day 41. I am feeling great. I don't miss her. I don't think about her. I don't care how is she. I keep myself busy all the time. Swimming, movies, hanging out with my friends and family... I go to bed pretty tired every night. I met someone great, we like each other, we spent a lot of time...

Day 38. @BeTheChange speaks the truth. The girl I mentioned previously, how we started chatting and she came to my city - we had a beer last night (with our mutual friend) and she is so sweet and cute I can't believe my eyes! She made me totally forget my ex, like COMPLETELY. I'm going on a...

You are right guys. I could have done this better. No more info on her posting on that site (that was the last remaining thing) from now on. I've accepted the fact that she has someone else now. The future is bright for all of us because we will become stronger and better after this.

Day 36. On this day last year we started chatting. It was a tough day for me, I have to admit. I cried 4-5 hours ago but I'm feeling good now. I got another laugh from her! I was chatting with some girls on that dating site where ex and I met (she can't see my posts but she can see the posts of...

"She knows what she is doing and does not care. I tried to do the same thing. Explain away the behaviour. Don't bother. You can't explain it because when you do, you try and look at it from how YOU would behave. These women are functioning on a completely different moral landscape to you and I...

It was a great feeling seeing what she wrote, this is a first of that kind since starting NC. The thing is - I still keep her blocked because it hurts knowing she has someone else. It would be much different if she hadn't jump into a new relationship, I would at least feel like I meant something...

Day 34. So funny thing happened. When I started the NC, I blocked her everywhere (dating site where we met, facebook, whatsapp). I also blocked her new girlfriend on that dating site which also has a forum (they put that they are in a relationship with each other). Blocking her was a great move...

Day 33. Ever since the break-up, I feel less worthy and like people generally don't like me. I believe that's the result of being dumped. It's really hard even though I go out with my friends and have fun but it seems like I don't enjoy it as I used to, and if I stay home I get very anxious and...

Day 32. ^ It doesn't help, those are just empty words but with time they will get their meaning. ;) And look what happened to me last night! I was surfing the gay dating site where I met my ex who is from another country (which is populated with the same nationality as my country) and I...

Day 31. @BeTheChange You're doing a bargaining. It's normal in the early phase of getting over break-up. I did the same thing - I was thinking would I accept her back if she asked and under which circumstances. But after 31 days, I am really good at accepting things as they are. Our lives were...

Day 30. Make yourself busy. Today was all about music for me. Lots of albums on my computer, waiting for me to listen to them so I cleaned up a lot and downloaded lots of new ones... I'm really looking forward enjoying them. I haven't done this in months (precisely - since the start of our...