It's official: U.S. women are bottom of the ****ing barrel. I've been having some interactions with easy going, warm hearted, down to earth and gorgeous women from South America and South East Asia and my dealings with them have been very natural and harmonious. It's so pleasant to interact with them that it's actually scaring the hell out of me. I've reached a point where I actually FEEL REALLY BAD when any of them take a genuine liking towards me. I'm not used to it. I think I've reached a point where I actually prefer dealing with flakey, manipulative, bipolar women who can cause me to hate her ****ing guts (and make me wanna damage her psychology even more) but it wouldn't matter because at the end of the day she still looks good enough to make my **** hard as a rock. I won't have to like her as a person and could honestly give a **** less about her stupid feelings. I can also take comfort and pleasure in the fact that there will never be a future between me and her. This is the kind of woman I've grown accustomed to.
This goes in direct opposition to how I was as a person about a decade ago as I've been brought up with strict traditional values and was taught to treat women with utmost respect. I was a hopeless romantic and would even put women before myself. I was genuinely very nice, naive, trusting and extremely innocent to say the least. It was very difficult shedding that psycologicall strait jacket but as of today I cannot accept genuinely good (foreign) women that show up in my life. Back in my mid-late teens to early twenties I would of loved to have them, marry them and start a family. Today I can only feel sorry for them perhaps because I see a reflection of what I used to be. For the most part I see myself becoming more and more "battle hardened" by life as time goes by. I already see marriage as nothing more than carrying dead weight and having children as a way to become the embodiment of Sisyphus where you have to subject yourself to a system of spiritual, mental and physical slavery to support them and yourself.
I don't even know why I'm writing all of this. All I can say is that it's a waste to see the genuinely good women go to waste. But maybe I'm just awakened and certain women are only as good and as bad as their society and culture allows them to be. I can compliment a U.S. female and chances are she'll be offended because I don't fit her definition of what an attractive male is supposed to be. I can do the same to a foreign woman that's every bit as attractive (or even more so) and her eyes would light up with happiness. A foreign woman could see you walking down the street and would offer you a ride. A man could offer a U.S. female a ride and the dumb b!tch would act as if she's doing YOU a favor by getting in your car. At worse she'll be offended if she doesn't find you "worthy" of being in her presence. A foreign woman actually knows how to be a goddamn woman. A U.S. female is a try-hard idiot who somehow got the idea she can start calling males "dude" or "bro". I'm sure I can keep going and you guys could add to that list but I think I made the point.
In a very big way I'm glad that I went through the hardships and mental anguish I've encountered over the past decade and a half. Through these tribulations I found priceless experience and ultimately freedom. I'd rather know the harsh, brutal realities about life rather than live a lie my entire life. At the same time I see that there are greener pastures yet I can't really come to terms with whats bothering me so much. I don't feel like I deserve anything better other than what I'm accustomed to. What the hell is going on?
This goes in direct opposition to how I was as a person about a decade ago as I've been brought up with strict traditional values and was taught to treat women with utmost respect. I was a hopeless romantic and would even put women before myself. I was genuinely very nice, naive, trusting and extremely innocent to say the least. It was very difficult shedding that psycologicall strait jacket but as of today I cannot accept genuinely good (foreign) women that show up in my life. Back in my mid-late teens to early twenties I would of loved to have them, marry them and start a family. Today I can only feel sorry for them perhaps because I see a reflection of what I used to be. For the most part I see myself becoming more and more "battle hardened" by life as time goes by. I already see marriage as nothing more than carrying dead weight and having children as a way to become the embodiment of Sisyphus where you have to subject yourself to a system of spiritual, mental and physical slavery to support them and yourself.
I don't even know why I'm writing all of this. All I can say is that it's a waste to see the genuinely good women go to waste. But maybe I'm just awakened and certain women are only as good and as bad as their society and culture allows them to be. I can compliment a U.S. female and chances are she'll be offended because I don't fit her definition of what an attractive male is supposed to be. I can do the same to a foreign woman that's every bit as attractive (or even more so) and her eyes would light up with happiness. A foreign woman could see you walking down the street and would offer you a ride. A man could offer a U.S. female a ride and the dumb b!tch would act as if she's doing YOU a favor by getting in your car. At worse she'll be offended if she doesn't find you "worthy" of being in her presence. A foreign woman actually knows how to be a goddamn woman. A U.S. female is a try-hard idiot who somehow got the idea she can start calling males "dude" or "bro". I'm sure I can keep going and you guys could add to that list but I think I made the point.
In a very big way I'm glad that I went through the hardships and mental anguish I've encountered over the past decade and a half. Through these tribulations I found priceless experience and ultimately freedom. I'd rather know the harsh, brutal realities about life rather than live a lie my entire life. At the same time I see that there are greener pastures yet I can't really come to terms with whats bothering me so much. I don't feel like I deserve anything better other than what I'm accustomed to. What the hell is going on?
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