Ive been in this LTR for 3 years on and off. We met in college and dated for 2years and we lived together for 1 of those. She had crazy friends that would do drugs, party, fvck etc. We broke up the first time because she was in grad school and just plain old emotional and irrational about everything. So i decided one day to pack my sh1t and just leave. Yes she is an AW which i know plenty about already from reading this forum. She is a crazy girl on anti's, parties etc. We talked once or twice after we broke up over a 2.5 year period.
Over a year ago I just got done with grad school and moved back down to the city. Well one night I decided to call her when I was drunk. She called the next day and we talked...well it ended up she was living down the street from me. We met up that night and we ate out, talked and she was like I still think about you yadda yadda. We ended up fvcking that night too. From that day we didnt talk during the week days. I would then call her on saturday mornings and she would answer and we would end up hanging out. Then it procedeed to the point were I was sleeping over every day...she lived literally 30 seconds away from me.
I get a good job during the beginning paying 50k. Then she hints at she wants to move in again after us talking again for about 3 months. We find an apartment downtown and move in. My job is cool but my boss is a fvck face like unberiable to be around and my desk was in his office like 3 feet away from his desk. I decided to quit because it was just getting out of control and the boss was irrational and a tyrant. I had money in the bank and my parents to back me up. My gf said well pursue what you wanna do. Honestly my goal in life is to be a pro poker player. Ive been playing poker for about 9 years. Ive seen high and lows. been up 6k in a day etc. Bascially alot of money flows threw my hands. After I quit i was playing a lot of poker it was good I would come home with a lot of money some nights. She was happy etc. Then I took a break because I took a hit on the bankroll. I then decided to start selling a product my mom gets from overseas on ebay. That turned out well Im netting about 3.5-4k a month consistently.
One day she seems p1ssed or what have you and I ask whats wrong. She says she doesnt want to be in this relationship anymore. I know its because I dont have a real job because she makes stupid comments all the time. Why would I work right now at a desk when im making that kind of money? I live a good life right now..I do what I want when I want and I make good money get to play poker whenever and have money to back it up. We are on a lease and I refused to take her off. She then said once the lease is up shes getting her own place. I was like fine do what you gotta do. That was months ago and we are still living together.
She would periodically call me and say "I gotta move out now" it was because at work she would be p1ssed etc. i think. I would say fine fvckign leave. if you leave you will never hear from me again. That would happen a couple of times. We would fvck atleast twice a week but since she said that sh1t it turned into once every 2 weeks or so. I just fvcked her 2 nights ago for the first time in 3-4 weeks.
She says well were not together so you cant say anything nothing matters. This is said when she pulls her typical AW sh1t and when I call her out. Well every morning she goes to work she kisses me goodbye so beats me what she thinks.
The last week or two I would not come home until 2 am because I would be playing poker. One morning she put her arms around me and kissed me. She hasnt done that in months. Thats the night I fvcked her.
When I fvcked her the other night she said gotta clear out the cob webs its been a while. She felt tight so I know she hasnt had sex with anyone else recently I wouldve felt it.
On the weekends she disappears to her friends house does coke all night with her and some fvckin douche. She wasnt like this before. She also tells my friends shes leaving me, were broken up yadda yadda and tells her friends some bs about how I am I think. Like im possessive. Yea pretty possessive when I call you at 8am telling you to get home after hangin with randoms doing drugs.
She claims shes doing drugs right now becuaes of our situation. Im like yea ok. I have no idea if shes talking to another guy right now but I know from the other night she hasnt fvcked anyone else lately.
The other weekened I ran into an ex who I dated years ago. We ended up making out blah blah. Thats another story. I would never do anything like that but due to my current situation I was like fvck it. Now I go out and look to fvck other ch1cks. Had another opportunity last night but was just not into it.
I still love her and care about her. I know she does to. She gets hard headed and doesnt say sh1t really. I keep my mouth shut mostly and just act nonchalant and say fine you wanna move move. Im moving out of state and Im going to pursue playing poker full time. This is what I tell her. I just wanna fix sh1t i never tell her I love her even though I want to. I just dropped her off at the airport we kissed goodbye but I just said bye not I love you. If i do I know I will lose with her. I feel Like im being a challenge to her. she sort of repsonsive but I just wanna get things back to normal. Im sure If i got a normal 9 to 5 she would be more likely to fix things.
She feels jealous of me because I dont deal with the sh1t she does and I make more money than her. Yes Im spoiled but she is too. SHe has the mentality to feel things are unfair and she gets jealous. I thnk she feels like this with me because I dont go through what she does on a daily basis. She knows I get access to money and have good money coming in. Lets put it this way I got 5-6k coming in every month that i use for bills etc. all legally. So she cant say im doing something illegal because Im not. I just dont konw what her dam problem is. She starts fights with me on the weekeneds when shes drunk and then she just drives off etc. She was never liket aht. Shes sabotoging sh1t. I just go to sleep and dont call her. I want sh1t to normal, I know its a long uphill battle but I want to be with her still if i can. because when sh1ts normal which it was for a while its good. Could be the the job i dont konw. If she decides to actually leave Im moving out of state and will never talk to her again and she knows this.
Im sure if she saw me with another girl or heard about it her mind would change very quickly. Maybe I should tell her about my ex. I dont konw.
Over a year ago I just got done with grad school and moved back down to the city. Well one night I decided to call her when I was drunk. She called the next day and we talked...well it ended up she was living down the street from me. We met up that night and we ate out, talked and she was like I still think about you yadda yadda. We ended up fvcking that night too. From that day we didnt talk during the week days. I would then call her on saturday mornings and she would answer and we would end up hanging out. Then it procedeed to the point were I was sleeping over every day...she lived literally 30 seconds away from me.
I get a good job during the beginning paying 50k. Then she hints at she wants to move in again after us talking again for about 3 months. We find an apartment downtown and move in. My job is cool but my boss is a fvck face like unberiable to be around and my desk was in his office like 3 feet away from his desk. I decided to quit because it was just getting out of control and the boss was irrational and a tyrant. I had money in the bank and my parents to back me up. My gf said well pursue what you wanna do. Honestly my goal in life is to be a pro poker player. Ive been playing poker for about 9 years. Ive seen high and lows. been up 6k in a day etc. Bascially alot of money flows threw my hands. After I quit i was playing a lot of poker it was good I would come home with a lot of money some nights. She was happy etc. Then I took a break because I took a hit on the bankroll. I then decided to start selling a product my mom gets from overseas on ebay. That turned out well Im netting about 3.5-4k a month consistently.
One day she seems p1ssed or what have you and I ask whats wrong. She says she doesnt want to be in this relationship anymore. I know its because I dont have a real job because she makes stupid comments all the time. Why would I work right now at a desk when im making that kind of money? I live a good life right now..I do what I want when I want and I make good money get to play poker whenever and have money to back it up. We are on a lease and I refused to take her off. She then said once the lease is up shes getting her own place. I was like fine do what you gotta do. That was months ago and we are still living together.
She would periodically call me and say "I gotta move out now" it was because at work she would be p1ssed etc. i think. I would say fine fvckign leave. if you leave you will never hear from me again. That would happen a couple of times. We would fvck atleast twice a week but since she said that sh1t it turned into once every 2 weeks or so. I just fvcked her 2 nights ago for the first time in 3-4 weeks.
She says well were not together so you cant say anything nothing matters. This is said when she pulls her typical AW sh1t and when I call her out. Well every morning she goes to work she kisses me goodbye so beats me what she thinks.
The last week or two I would not come home until 2 am because I would be playing poker. One morning she put her arms around me and kissed me. She hasnt done that in months. Thats the night I fvcked her.
When I fvcked her the other night she said gotta clear out the cob webs its been a while. She felt tight so I know she hasnt had sex with anyone else recently I wouldve felt it.
On the weekends she disappears to her friends house does coke all night with her and some fvckin douche. She wasnt like this before. She also tells my friends shes leaving me, were broken up yadda yadda and tells her friends some bs about how I am I think. Like im possessive. Yea pretty possessive when I call you at 8am telling you to get home after hangin with randoms doing drugs.
She claims shes doing drugs right now becuaes of our situation. Im like yea ok. I have no idea if shes talking to another guy right now but I know from the other night she hasnt fvcked anyone else lately.
The other weekened I ran into an ex who I dated years ago. We ended up making out blah blah. Thats another story. I would never do anything like that but due to my current situation I was like fvck it. Now I go out and look to fvck other ch1cks. Had another opportunity last night but was just not into it.
I still love her and care about her. I know she does to. She gets hard headed and doesnt say sh1t really. I keep my mouth shut mostly and just act nonchalant and say fine you wanna move move. Im moving out of state and Im going to pursue playing poker full time. This is what I tell her. I just wanna fix sh1t i never tell her I love her even though I want to. I just dropped her off at the airport we kissed goodbye but I just said bye not I love you. If i do I know I will lose with her. I feel Like im being a challenge to her. she sort of repsonsive but I just wanna get things back to normal. Im sure If i got a normal 9 to 5 she would be more likely to fix things.
She feels jealous of me because I dont deal with the sh1t she does and I make more money than her. Yes Im spoiled but she is too. SHe has the mentality to feel things are unfair and she gets jealous. I thnk she feels like this with me because I dont go through what she does on a daily basis. She knows I get access to money and have good money coming in. Lets put it this way I got 5-6k coming in every month that i use for bills etc. all legally. So she cant say im doing something illegal because Im not. I just dont konw what her dam problem is. She starts fights with me on the weekeneds when shes drunk and then she just drives off etc. She was never liket aht. Shes sabotoging sh1t. I just go to sleep and dont call her. I want sh1t to normal, I know its a long uphill battle but I want to be with her still if i can. because when sh1ts normal which it was for a while its good. Could be the the job i dont konw. If she decides to actually leave Im moving out of state and will never talk to her again and she knows this.
Im sure if she saw me with another girl or heard about it her mind would change very quickly. Maybe I should tell her about my ex. I dont konw.
