Ok my life has been up and down throughout my life, I realized that I went through a lot ,especially because of the environment and family I was brought up and raised in.... A lot of hardships, earlier in my life I had self esteem issues, health issues, basically I couldn't just find my balance or even know where I was headed to... Now this was scary, I was depressed, I was lonely, I was in the same rhythm everyday... it was so ****ed up... kind of like obsessive compulsive disease ( which I use 2 have when i was a little kid) I wasn't able to relate to my friends and family, it was isolation and depression to the max. It was as if I was hoping for a miracle. a glimpse of light. I even thought about suicide. But I couldn't muster the courage to do it, a hope for something brighter and something better kept me going! Now here I am stronger than ever, doing what I love, being the best that I CAN BE! Because I know that I will only get one chance and I can imagine myself telling my grandkids when I am older that I lived my life the way I wanted it..... It was a life full of adventure, joy and excitement... What caused this 180 degree turn was one day of enlightment. I realized that I controlled this body, the way I walked, how I picked up things... basically everything! It was as if this body was a machine designed for me... Before realizing this instead of controlling my body my body was controlling me. But what really hit me just like that and enlightened me for the rest of my life was the fact that I was in " CONTROL " all the time!!! 100% of the time 1000% of the TIME! You CONTROL YOU, you this body of yours, everything you do YOU CONTROL IT! What that means is that you can control yourself.... self-control! You tell this body what to do , what to think what things to experience and say! Think about that for a moment. You know that you control yourself and everything you do... External things dont control you. IF YOU CONTROL YOURSELF YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANTED! ill leave it at that...

i like that. the fact is that we do have a choice in every situation. a choice to take action, or let fear overcome us. a choice to let that b.itch that rejected you to crumble your self esteem, or to realize that youre the catch and RIGHT NOW she just doesnt realize it.

its true we are our own worst enemy sometimes. not just with the people who fear rejection and wont talk to a woman, but with pursuing our dreams (which is more important anyways). My plan from this day forward, is to do 3 things constructive everyday. 3 things that will get me closer to what i want. No TV, no Xbox, no internet, until ive completed my 3 things. its easy to let yourself think you can accomplish these things tomorrow, but you know what, youll give yourself the same line the next day. ACT TODAY, because tomorrows not promised.

oh one more thing, i had to edit this post and i may start a new thread when i can get more in touch with my true thoughts. this just popped in my mind. even if youre not exactly where you want to be in life, the little things you do may not feel like enough and may discourage you. but do the little things everyday, be productive everyday. the more productive things you do everyday, you get one step closer to your dream. the little steps lead to bigger things, if you dont act you get nowhere.