What I am going to write is straight from my heart.

I was always a lover of beauty since I was a child. Funny enough, I could always flirt through the eyes from a small age even with my teachers. LOL. And I was never needy. There were just crushes and I got over them even without their knowing that. I was a kid, remember.

Now, when I first joined high school or college in India,as they call it, I started with Maths Major, and here is when that happened. I saw a girl in my class one day, a flash and IT happened. The famous quote: "I fell in love for once and I fell in forever....". Have anyone of you been in love ever? I am not really an emotional guy of that sort, whiny and feely! Man, I love that girl. Even two years after break up (which I did with her because she was playing hard to get too much), but I still can't forget the feeling I had for her. It is not obsession now, since I am pretty much in control and am already seeing 3 girls at the same time now. So, I am not coming from a scarcity mindset. But did you ever hear that song of Enrique,"You are my #1"? I feel like that for her. I even sang that to her in the middle of the night. ****, man. One-itis. Is it really, man? Tell me something guys, are we only programmed by evolution to go for as many girls as possible? Yes, of course, I would love to shag as many girls in my life as possible. But I just can't get over her. I keep thinking of her. Keep thinking about the memories we had together. I still feel her touch and the smell of her skin. I still feel a butterfly feeling in my stomach when I think about her, I still have my heart heavy when I listen to romantic songs alone at times in the night which brings all her memories back. Maybe I would be hers forever and for always. LOL. Have you guys ever been in love? Have you ever just needed that girl not for her body not for her intelligence, but for her foolish shy smile and stupid acts. Have you ever told yourself that you gonna love her till the end of the world, whatever may happen between you two?

See, I know guys here have a problem with girls and most of them, want to get laid as much as possible. But have you ever really felt that stupid yet overwhelming emotion when you can stand on top of the highest mountain and scream at the top of your voice,"I LOVE YOU"?

Sounds like your referring to your first love and I know how you feel. To this day, I think of my first love as someone no one could ever compare to. It's one of those memories that is everlasting and will stick with you for life, especially if the breakup between you two didn't involve killing each other.

No matter how DJ you become, you'll always have those feelings about her. I've been in love before and it's crazy where you can't explain it. I can't speak for other DJs here but I know what you mean.

Just keep those feelings you have about her to yourself, or share it with her if she feels the same.

Just don't do it with every girl you come across.

I know exactly what you mean man, just remember that you were young when you felt that, and if you met her now would you feel that same way? In my case, I know I would hahaha.

Every man has a soft spot (or once had) for at least one woman in his life. Most of the time it is a woman that has left him and he had no control over the situation. No matter how much better of women he is talking to now, that one still lingers in his mind.

In your case, you ended the relationship and got her out of your life. Sure, the memories of first love are awesome, but just remember this; be thankful that you ended things on your terms and not hers. Some guys get thrown out like yesterdays trash by women they have loved for years. And for months and even years these men will be miserable. (unless they are very strong) You have a different perspective on this.. I'd say forget her and be thankful that things are the way they are.

Yes, she is my first love and maybe, my last love! You know what I mean.

I am not boasting at all, when I say that I was always very picky about who my girl would be and can be, and always had high standards. And, this girl, can't say if she met all my standards, but she was completely different from teh rest, she was teh ONE!

Nah, I have promised myself that she has come to me if anything has to happen and I understand whatever happened is for my good. But still.... some things can never be ended!

haha ha, and to desert rose, yes, I think I would feel the same now also.

I realised something: A DJ is a character, he meets women and women fall for him. But love is teh deepest and purest feeling that comes straight from the heart! you can never control that, not even a DJ can control that.