I think Im ****ed up or something. I used to be confident leader of the pack all that. Man I was leading so much **** back in the day. I had a whole pack of **** and we beat people up and kicked it all that. I was the leader. I think when I got to middle school my confidence just kinda went down, even in 5th grade.

I have no idea why. It wasnt like I was accomplishing much back in the day. I accomplish so much more now, and I'm always improving all parts of my life.

Nowadays I dont think Im all that confident. If I see people all the time, I dont even get to kno em, even if I see em all the time. I just wait until I meet em through friends or until I meet em outside of where I usually see em. ("hey dont u go to xxxxxx?"). I barely ever talk to people I don't know (cashiers, etc).

I'm sure this is a confidence issue. Cuz there are times I'm a lot more outgoing. This happens when Im happier than usual, but doesn't last long. It could be because of something that happened earlier in the day, or cuz im "in an altered state of mind" as the school people call it. Then I'll be more outgoing talking to people I don't know or don't know that well.

Your parents divorced?

Working out helps a lot, as if when you have a routine. Run, weights, etc..

Nah thankfully my parents arent divorced. It's ok at home now. I used to not get along, but i think that was just a phase. It didnt help that my grandparents were passing away.

Ok I'll try that consistent working out, but in the summer I was biking at least a few miles tuesday thru friday (bmx bike too). It was mostly relaxing but sometimes we would go all out.

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Could it be that you're used to your ways so much, that you automatically fall back to what you do. Perhaps the cure is to do what you think is right when you feel like you're not doing what you want.

djSlvt said:

Could it be that you're used to your ways so much, that you automatically fall back to what you do. Perhaps the cure is to do what you think is right when you feel like you're not doing what you want.

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Hmm I do what I feel is right but I realize it might not be right later. I know I can't regret what already happened but I feel like I can fix mistakes for the next time. But I don't think it's a matter of "doing what I think is right."

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